HOW TO
SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD AND MAKE IT
Has that ever been a question in your heart? In a world full
of hopelessness and sorrows and dead ends that just lead us
around in a circle. Looking for an answer that will help us
understand. Are there really any answers. . . is there really
any hope? I have written this book out of my own asking.
I too experiencing a life with no meaning.
Ever heard the
expression wish I would of known then what I know now? Well
your not alone. That is where I am at today. . . I look back
today and see so many things I could of done differently. For
starters my childhood, I would have stood with my
grandparents. As an a teen maybe I would of been involved in
some youth activity and Church, instead of being on the run
feeling homeless and scared of what I was going through and
had to face. A childhood nite mare.
Now I am an adult and
boyyyy what I would do to not have smoked drank and party all
those years in my youth! I look back and can see how life was
just stripping piece by piece stripping me of all my dignity
and hope. Life just keeps on going and soon I was married and
children and then family and then Divorce and devastation
which brought on the drugs and alcohol and the no where life
and road I went down I was now reliving in my children. Sooo
where did living my own life get me. . .all it got was
sickness for smoking and drinking. I can't tolerate it trying
to undo what was done in my body and mind cause like it or not
cigarettes and alcohol and drugs do have long term
consequences. I got me a boyfriend who I wanted from my
childhood years but was that wise and for my good?
I don't think sooo
since it left me facing a divorce and messed up kids. Now
watching my children go through all they are kills me to see
and wish I can help them but. . .I can't. I wrote this poem
about what I feel when I look into my children's eyes. . .
Contemplating Suicide
I am writing
today...my heart heavy and my mind in a fog
I am dealing
with the consequence of sin!
I have never
prayed on my knees until today.
Don't
misunderstand I have prayed on my knees from my heart
but today is
different
I am feeling
the crushing pain of what Gods children have to face
when they are
throw to except a sin
that extends
the consequence
My son today,
right now as I speak
could be
killing himself because
he thinks
there's no way out
a dead end
Battling with
this sin he has taken in
It doesn't
make sense
when your
taught about sin
My son has
been wrestling
and has come
back
but strays
again and again relapse
He thinks my
ex needs a lesson
to be taught
so in his mind
he wants him to suffer
the loss
It all to make
sense
but that's is
not ours to fense
Vengeance is
mine saith the Lord
I am feeling
this from 4 kids
They all have
died in some way
and now its a
choice they have to make
They thought
that choice was done
but when the
head falls off the body
is done
I am in deep
thought and want to say
if your
thinking divorce
Think twice!
Today!
The
consequences are not nice
Sex, Drugs,
alcohol and messed up a person
is what you
make
I am watching
my children fall apart
It is murder
and brakes my heart!
Four lives it
has touched
and
spiritually speaking they are stuck,
in darkness
starting again
to find there
way back
from this ugly
sin,
They were
raised in the church and trained up right
until this
person thought it was alright
to make
happiness first than sacrifice
I am strong
and have the Lord
but my
precious gifts are so torn
They can't see
right now there seed
has fallen
down and been released
They are now
to figure it out
Who will keep
Faith for and look out
the damage is
done the lives of these persons
are in Faiths
hands
to try to undo
what can't be undone
But there only
one hope and that hope is
He
Faith is the
evidence of things we can't see
but hope for. . .
Soooo see life had really no meaning? We had a relationship
which went from cheating and distrust to a marriage with more
feelings of mistrust and feelings of jealousy and questionings
and someone killing someone's self esteem to build theirs
up. Bitterness growing in our hearts soon turned to
resentments and more disrespect. that lead to 21 years of a
sad and no where life with feelings of worthlessness and like
a time bomb BOOM!
We both exploded! I wanted nothing to do with him and he
wanted out and didn't know how. . . Having children makes it
even harder because you hope things get better but find its
false hope and the children grow up watching mom and dad never
enjoying life anymore.
Soon the kids are almost grown and they just can't take it any
more. So mom and dad try but the hurts from words and actions
has killed not just the relationship but each person involved. That soon leads to more cheating
and caused family chaos and lead up to where I'm at. . . So in this world we call life
seems so twisted up and don't know why lets go on and find out
why?
WHO, WHAT, WHEN,
WHERE AND WHY
Wondering
who I was. . . what my purpose is. . . when
will it all end. . . where I was heading. . .
why was I not satisfied or happy? In
desperation and no where else to turn, I cried out to someone,
who I already knew was always there but I didn't understand.
So, wanting so bad to feel better, I started to trust in the
only one who can. I have so much to share with you. Soooo
excited to pass on, what I have found to have changed my life
completely!
There is
way.
. . and a reason. . . why your are here. . . while
existing to find the answer . . .
where
it would lead. . .beyond your wildest dreams!
Wondering
how to deliver this message and pass it on. . . the answers to
all questions. I chose a way that would be between you and the
one who will bring about this truth. You, me and The Holy
Spirit!
The answer to.
. . How can we Survive in this world and make it! WHEN GOD
NEVER GIVES UP. . . AND WE DO. . . Feelin at your wit?. . .the
last little bit? Sometimes in life when we have no hope we
turn to God. What happens if when we have God and feel all
hope is gone . . . where do you go from here? I want to share
that when life seems to loose its meaning and hope, especially
being a child of God. There are reasons behind that. I would
like to share my own personal testimony with you. This
is not so that I may cry on your shoulder but that God does
get the Glory! How you can have all the answers and a brand new
life!
My name
is JCs also. I am a mum 42 years old. I have four
absolute best friends well, 9 if I include my 3 dogs, 1 cat
and 1 sunconure bird called, Moe who likes to only say no!
Yes four coolest and beautiful blessed gifts, I can ever
receive! I am a Born Again Believer. . .what we call a
Christian. I love my Lord! He has been so good to me!
Like they say.
. .never forsakes and no mistakes when we walk with Him!
Perfect harmony and smiles on my face ! A laughter I can't
replace! My story is this a testimony of all I have done in
life with Him and without Him. You want answers well follow
me. . . I have somewhat of an enlightened Treasure for you to
see. . . The truth that can set you free! I kid you not just
read on on, you will be blessed and move on. . .and on! Only
in hopes of your new life to give you true meaning in this
world. A life meant living and living so well and blessings
under the sun you can't deny!
NEW
YORK ... NEW YORK
Place of Origin where it
all starts. . . Born and raised in the city that they
say," Never Sleeps" Yes, none other than of course New York
City! I was raised in the South Bronx till I was 7 then
moved towards East Bronx which was very nice. Allerton Ave and
Pelham Parkway. . .Bronx Park East. . . .Castle Hill! My home!
Life in The Big Apple! Experiences . . .sooooo amazing and
unbelievable! I must say, it was sooooo rewarding and
fun and most memorable! One of my most memorable moments would
have to be as a child was when my aunt would pick us up
every week end and we would spend the day in Staten
Island visiting one of our well known landmarks known as no
other than the lady standing for freedom!. . . The
Statue of Liberty!
Now
living in sunny Florida, I can't visit her any more sooooo,
I hang on to what I remember being so much fun! The
other if I had to say was my mom would take us all the time to
Broadway Plays! Which I absolutely loved! Never imagined that
would inspire me one day to have my own Drama and Puppet
Teams! Writing mini skits and most my favorite. . .many
"Musicals!" Some more of my very, very memorable good times
would have to be. . . Ice skating in Rockerfellor Center. . .
Macys Thanksgiving and Christmas Day Parades. . . going
to Macys every Christmas to see Santa Claus. . .
"getting my first doctor kit!" I Felt so important!
The Museum of
Natural History! Sooooo much fun! I have to say, I was
presented with the many gifts and talents of . . . The Arts. .
. soooo very, very young. Sooooo glad they did! The last
thing I would like to share of living in N.Y. would have to be
the people!
Real
people! They don't hold back and are very honest!
You have to understand living in a city that has a high crime
rate and sooooo fast paced one learns to adapt but keeps it
straight! I love my people! So in need of employment and a
life. . . I had the opportunity to work in the New York
Coliseum! Right dab in the middle of Manhattan. . . 59st
Columbus Circle! A place of showing and doing? I saw
many beautiful boat shows, shows of all kinds . . . shows that
Inspired me with a love for boats, cars, and inventions. . .
so much of a variety of things happening all the time! My
favorite was meeting lots of famous people and movie stars!
Then the shopping!
Can't forget the shopping in Manhattan! As soon as I would
leave work, right outside the door a man selling hot pistachio
nuts! Yummy! As a matter of fact. . . men selling every
thing, every where! We call these peddlers with worldly
treasures! LOL Well, any ways . . .lol. . . right out
side, I would buy a bag of those hot delicious pistachios and
then go check out all the stores! If I had to say what would
have been my favorite store it would have to be the
shoe stores! I loved all the different kinds of shoes and exotic
boots! I once bought these really cute white short
anklet pointy leather slip on punked out boots! Sooooo
cool!
I love that you can
wear as you please and sooooo many styles to see. Woooooo
whoooooooo! Don't get me wrong, I do have my limits on style
but I do love being different! Unique! That doesn't mean I
don't like the styles here. I love my fashion summer wears
too! AKA. . .The Bathing suit! I love my new home. . .Florida!
Florida life to me has been an everyday vacation! I do miss
the change of seasons like the snow! I remember making snowman
and eating the snow. . . Snow angels and sleigh rides fast
down hill. . ."little red one with front that wiggled". Oh
yeah, which reminds me of another familiar place I loved !
This place called. . . Central Park! The creativity of
people! Dancing in the streets and playing music on garbage
cans. . .mimes and card tricks that took my money LOL Food of
all kinds. Pretty horses trailing on by! Leaving there own
trails too! LOL Boy I am soooo grateful as I reminisce! To
have all I have experienced in my younger life, I can only
miss! Well lets move on to what I would like to like to share.
. . WHEN GOD NEVER GIVES UP STILL ... AND WE DO!
AS A CHILD
GROWING UP
I had a very rough childhood. Satan disguised
as someone else hurt me real bad. Which would lead me down a
road of destruction which I did not see. Growing up really
quick! Alcohol, drugs. . .and a spiritual blindness! I was
raised with my grandparents before someone, called satan crept
into my life. They were my human guardian angels! My joys of
life! But one day I wanted to go live with my mom. My mom on a
road of destruction herself . . .drinking. . loneliness and
wanting to be loved, let my grand parents raise me. One
day asked by my grandfather to go to store. I said no. He not
being himself lately because of diabetes took off his belt and
said. . . what ! Soooo I started to cry. That was totally out
of character for him.
I was only 7 and was afraid to go down to the store by myself.
Long story made short,
I moved in with my mom who I wanted so much to know. I
had a sister who lived with her too, who I hadn't really
known. So, I was sooooo happy and looking forward but oh boy!
Wrong timing! What I thought was going to be this great
reunion turned out to me a childhood horror. My mom out of
desperation for love from a broken marriage due to divorce was
out to find happiness. Well, right about the time I
moved in, she too met someone that she just moved in.
Watching my sister get beat and put in a home way out in
Staten Island. She was only 10? I would go to see her and I
knew in my heart this was not right and had to pretend. I
won't say no more except that I lived a life in fear from that
time till I was 13.
Six long years later, I moved back in with my
grandmother. My grandfather had died. Who I really too missed!
My grandmother a devoted Catholic who faithfully took me and
my sister and 3 cousins to church. A long time ago when we
were younger. God forbid if we cracked a smile or played with
the foot rest underneath our seats, she would give us this
look we all new. If that didn't do it then a pinch, That I
would never forget! What I would have done to feel her pinches
instead of all those years, I couldn't feel anything at all! I
want to share because as being raised a Christian, just
because we are Christians, doesn't mean we are exempt from
satan's evil ways of inflicting hurts and pain.
I quit school at
an early age. Got a good job in the New York Coliseum. One day
came home and found our home gone. I ran in the pub next door
and asked what happened and where was the woman that lived
there? Where did she go? I was so upset not knowing what his
response would be. What took seconds seemed like years. .
.finally he answered and said, calm down its ok. The
boiler blew up and I helped her up to the roof until the Fire
Department arrived. She was taken to hospital. At that moment,
I just wanted to scream and cry! Holding back my tears,
I thanked him and gave him a hug and went on my way. Never
imagining where I would end up next.
In Sunny Florida. . .
only not so sunny because, I was being sent back to my mom who
left N.Y. to get away from all of what had happened to me.
All those years she abandoned me? Is what I always thought to
be. Another one of satans little white lies. She couldn't take
the pain but never left him either. I was faced with
having to look back into the devils eyes. I had no one else
and thought this can't be happening to me? I got on my knees
in my heart and just cried out, why Lord!. . . Why me!
What did I do? Did I disobey my grandfather and was paying for
it? I did not understand? Well, I did what I had to do
to survive.
One day and what I could
not see, I met a lady who needed a live in babysitter. What
awesome way for me to find some rest and peace. I was only 16.
So what God provided for me was a place, I called my haven
from all I did not want to face. As I went to take care of
them. I met these 3 beautiful kids! Not knowing what I would
expect next. What I saw next was just not fair! The mom lived
on one side of the apartment complex with her boyfriend, the
doctor and his 3 kids and her precious little flowers lived in
a apt with just a mattress on floor not even a sheet!
They had food but, just could not believe! Oh my God I cried
out. . .how can this be! Three who did not deserve this and
did not ask to be here. All I could do was Pray! Pray! Pray!
Night and day!
There was Huggie who was
7 and Lanny who was 13 and Nina who was 14 and she looked
after them both like a perfect mom. One day she asked,
could I make breakfast for you? I said sure! What would it be?
With a grin on my face and a feeling of love from within. She
said, Pancakes with a big beautiful smile! Could not believe!
Who would ever know those would be the best pancakes, I would
ever eat in my whole life! I don't look at a pancake like any
one would. When I eat pancakes, I see a pancake with a big
beautiful smile and big beautiful blue eyes, looking back at
me!
Well, one day mine and
there prays were answered! The mom was moving them in!
The Doc finally married her! That was the end of my chapter
and needed to move on but, I was soooo happy my little flowers
were let out of the attic! I often think and pray that on that
day when we are all in eternity, I will see them there happy,
and her making pancakes for me! Well, as my life continued on
down a dark path. Homeless and snatched up by one who knew
exactly all he had done! This someone who I will introduce you
to further on. Life just kept
on going from bad to bad and no light at the end of my road.
BUT ... One day, I got saved! A personal
relationship. . . just between me and Him and not religion!
While letting Him lead my life. . .today. I was now a true born again believer! Excepted Christ into my life when I was 21
pregnant and with one child already and no dad for them! I
never intended from the start. I wanted the perfect wedding
and the perfect start. . . I started seeking God. 1985 was the
year! I had this dream? I was driving on this long long
bridge, Then all of a sudden a loud noise like a siren of war.
. .boom then darkness all around! Could not see a thing in
front of me behind no where! Total darkness. Then all of a
sudden a spark opening up in the dark way up in the sky. I was
standing as I watched, I then saw a ladder coming out of this
spark. So very beautiful and amazing yet, could not believe?
The ladder blinked on and off like
silverish blinking lights on Christmas tree.
These lights shaped on the sides of this ladder sparkled and
shined so bright! Then blinking up and down the ladder they
were amazing to see. Then feet stepping down this ladder He
came down facing out to me. He looked so bright and beautiful
and shined so bright, I could hardly see but then His face was
blinding, I Couldn't focus on His face it was of such
brilliance!
So, I turned away but wanting to see. .
. a voice as then He spoke to me. What He said, has stuck with
me. I don't know why but, I can see. I was in such an
aw. I knew this was no dream but a place I seen? Why did I see
such an awesome show!. . . I would not let go! He said. . .It
Has Now Come To The. . . End of Time! When God speaks He gets
all Caps! (Capitol letters) I was so blessed from that
Dream. . .Vision, I have seen and will hold on till we
meet! That alone was my transformation Salvation Dream! Opened
my eyes to what I could not see. Not just transformation too
but God has given me Confirmation! Confirmation was this . .
.reading the Bible a few weeks or a month later, I came across
a story a story just as I seen! [Jacobs Ladder.] I wondered to
my self, how could this be? With out a doubt! He confirmed in
me, all I saw was not a dream!
I saw an event, I know I was there. I
don't know all the answers but, I want to share! I love the
Lord with all my heart, Hes been there from the start. Well
lets go on and see all He has for you and me. . .Mi Familia
... All raised in the Lord and the many blessings and miracles
only God can give! A good Christian Husband, Church ,
Business, Trucks, Vans, Cars, Awesome Boat, Ministries! Yes,
21 years with my child hood sweet heart from N.Y.C. He
came to Florida to find me. Only God could of worked all this
out! For each day we were faithful so was He! Even so more
abundly! My husband went from Maintanance to the Minister of
Music and Contemporary Worship Leader! He even had a band
which he ministered all over Saint Petersburg. I was a
Puppet Leader and Music and Drama Leader. Ministered all over as well. . .Puppets. . .Drama. .
.Soloist. . .Clowns. . .Mimes. . .Face Painters. . . Balloon
Artist. . .Sunday School Bible Teacher. . .Writer. . .Costume
Maker. . . and my kids were a big part in all this too! Sounds
familiar?
My childhood days?
In that big place called . . .The Big Apple!. . . New York
City! Where all my inspirations and dreams have now come
to pass! Cool huh! I would say coincidence but there are no
coincidence with God! In this world we will seek. . . there is
only one who sees, our Destiny and has them planned out
already for you and me! So, as we Ministered in Churches. .
.Nursing Homes. . . Street Ministry for the homeless. .
.County Fairs. . .Saint Petersburg Annual Christmas Parade. .
.even did Bereans Saturday Kids Club! When I say, God
saves and blesses. . . know there is no end to your faithfulness!
So you wonder then
why. . . are you writing this book? That is the reason!
What I want you to see is not where we think God failed but,
where we as humans are weak and fail. Who fall down. Who are
born sinners and reap, the total opposite of all He wants us to be!
This story will now take a lil twist of faith.
TWIST IN FAITH
January of 2006 . . . 22 years and all this
later! I want to say before I share the rest. . .know God is
never to blame! What God from the beginning never intended!
That was satan's evil tricks called Sin, Sickness, Sorrows &
Death! Satan the one I like to introduce you to. . . please is
the one behind your stolen lives and misery. We are in a
battle you do not see. A battle won already for you and me.
The battle started up in the Heavens when one of Gods chosen,
one called lucifer Gods angel in command, had lost respect for
His creator and he deemed pride! The Bible which clearly
states pride comes before a fall! (Pride goeth before
destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall. --Proverbs
16:18) Well, yes he did fall! This angel called satan, devil, Abbadon. [
Rev. 9: 11]
And they had a king over them, which is the angel of
the bottomless pit, whose name in the Hebrew tongue is
Abaddon, but in the Greek tongue hath his name Apollyon.]
Fell and he
was cast out of the Heavens and cast right down to this earth!
He not only wanted to lead but he took charge, and a third of
Gods fellows called, angels. . . fell down too! Angered that
he lost the battle and thrown out! He was ticked! Well, this
ticked and ticked till he thought he found the way. Soooo he
disguised himself as he does today, as a sneaky snake to start
a lie, that would cost so many, many lives! That would only lead to Sin, Sickness, Sorrows &
Death!
Can you see?
SOOOOOOO, HERE I AM SATAN
So here I am
42 and divorced and kids on drugs and angry and hurting.
Trying to cope from this awful sin! Yes, my husband had
fallen! The head of household. . . The Christian back bone. .
. The awesome Christian dad. . .who served in youth with them.
Lead worship in Church. . . lead worship over them! Lead
worship over me! Can you see my point. I am not pressing to
pass judgment, I am only sharing what I could have never
seen coming! My kids were the ones to find out. What I
am about to share is not to make you scared of service or
serving in a place we call church. The moral to this story is that you stay
focused and remember because of our sin nature we all sin.
WE WRESTLE AGAINST PRINCIPALITIES OF DARKNESS
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but
against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of
the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in
high places. . . EPH 6:12 I too wondered for Him how could one
do such things and take it lightly? Not understanding and cast
down too, I became part of satan's game! I wrestled with Fear
and afraid of all. He deserves our best! In the beginning God
created man and in His Image, not satan's. He created two
human beings. Adam and Eve. That was then when satan
came and said . . . the only reason God told you not to touch
or eat of these two trees is because
you would know as much as He. A lie right from
the start! He said, if you eat you will not just know as much
as He but, become a God like He! A God indeed? Who does he
think he is! God!. . . Yes! His first planted seed! He wants
so bad to be God that at the end, he will return as the
Ant-Christ, to mislead the world into thinking this awful lie.
That he is God!
Satan cause my husband to
fall! Only there is a catch here. Satan can do all this but
only if he can? The
story goes he cheated with the Pastors sons fiancé. She sang
in praise team. Why, I share this you must wonder why? It is a
big part to something we call flesh, flesh! There is your
answer because he had weaknesses. Weaknesses that the devil. .
AKA satan could use on him and abuse on him. As he does on you
and me. He struggled all through our marriage but never fell
like he did. I was a total mess! Did not even expect.
Then satan disguised squeezed in some other tactics called
women. Cheating Women. Jezebel's, singing in church on praise
team. As they cheated on husbands in praise team too.
I could do nothing but
pray and watch things unfold as my husband had to choose! He
(God) gave my husband up to the desires of his flesh! There is
a verse . . Romans 1:24 Wherefore God also gave them up to
uncleanness, through the lusts of their own hearts, to
dishonor their own bodies between themselves: So see when we
give satan foothold it becomes a stronghold and he becomes our
god. God does not make us serve Him but to let us choose. .
.in this dangerous game we all play.
So see, I don't blame God! God walked with us as we walked
with Him. When we were faithful. . . so was He! But when we
seek other Gods, we not only commit adultery with in our
flesh, but against our Almighty God who is called the Great
IAM! Then the consequence of divorce. . .watching my children
fall apart right before my eyes and I can't help them!
It is murderous!
So see my
testimony is this. . . like Job God gave and like Job he let
satan try to take it away? And Lord said unto Satan, Hast thou
considered my servant Job? that there is none like him in the
earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and
turneth Cheweth (turneth) away from evil. [Job 1:8] Jobs a
book in the Bible and a very good one, I must say! A man
who had everything and everything taken away! But wait!
Then Job hung on and tried again and God blessed him with
double and he does win! If you do not own a Bible,
please that is where your answers start! The answers are not
in money, sex, drugs, sins. . . but. . . in one who came to
make right, what satan tried to begin in sin!
Sooooo, because of our sinful nature our flesh
is weak, we are the ones that fail and fall! God only allows
satan to see. . . if we are truly faithful in what we say.
Tried by fire being polished to shine! A choice to make! But
you must wonder what happened to me? I was still trying to be
faithful! In my own life's despairs! Soooo, I must
share! Its been a little over a year now, I mourned my lost!
Only, I refuse to give satan any more, so, I am fighting this
fight, I call a Christian life! I had to sell my home
and sign over business and just split up and divide! I was
left with having to face with moving out and find a place all
within a week.
I
Had no money because for all who ever heard of refinancing we
were maxed out! All, I could do was pray. . . pray. . . pray.
. . . and one day. . . God is sooooo Good! I got this house
only a few blocks over so my daughter didn't have to change
schools and start new. Nice house to rent! Only one problem, I
did not have any money, credit or a good paying job. I was a
homeschooled mum who helped run our business. There was one
thing I did have of course next to having God and that was a
church family who cared! I borrowed money from my church. Who
would ever expect what else happened next. . . my mom goes to
be with the Lord the same year. She passed on but separated
from the man who she put first in her life and replaced him
with God!
I Paid my dues God never gives up! She left me a few bucks! So
if I may say! God has me covered! A house in January with no
credit and no money, a car in back in November with no money
or credit, just a trade in, a business I started in January
and its is November and is doing well! I get alimony! LOL and
child support! My kids are being restored! My faith as little
as a mustard seed is what God must of saw in me. . . because
He kept right on blessing me. I had stopped going to church
for about a year. I tried to go back several times but time is a big part of
this walk we call Faith. Seasons in our lives! In the Bible
it speaks of these season and time!
WHO
ARE WE AND WHY ARE WE HERE
Ecclesiastes chapter 3
verses 1-15 ... There is a purpose under the sun! A Season and a time
. . .for everything. . .to every Purpose. . . (for each one and a
meaning) under Heaven! Of who we really are! See, I am now
back at my home church and in an awesome Bible study class!
Getting ready to minister in the Annual Christmas Parade!
December 2, 2006. I got Christian counseling for free and
gained another church family! This church is not a your
regular church! This church I call. . . Cyber Church! Has been
the seed that brought me back to life! God watered me there!
Brought me to this place called, Christianity Oasis on the
web! When all life just about seemed gone God gave me someone
too pray for me and has been feeding me sooooo much since! The
lessons in my Cyber Church Christianity Oasis. . . from my
Daily Bread - Word of God and -C-o-o-l -bible studies of all
kinds! Oasis the one inspired by God and founder of this Oasis
specializes in Bible Prophecy and End Times Studies too!
We
gather in a chat room . . .all Christian based and bible
studies going on in these little sub rooms they which they
create, to have us gather in to study. Oasis the founder,
Preaches and has others appointed to teach lessons too. I can
go on and on . . .we play trivia on Fridays and password on
Saturdays and Faith bingo on Sunday too! Different days of the
week! We win prizes like a Christian Tee- shirt! All the
miracles and blessings God can give! I say this with a whole
heart now and ready to love and give back to others all God
has given to me!
My ex-husband is
serving again and is very sorry and has a good relationship
with his kids. He is in counseling and seeking Gods face for
forgiveness and trying to pick up his cross from where he had
left off. I too which have been invaded by fears and lots of
phobias has given them to God and He is just seeing us
through! Sooooo, what we do in our [flesh our weaknesses] and
what satan means for bad. . . God can change it and you and use it for His
good!
I am living it and am so happy and at peace that only God
can give!
MY WITNESS
Satan at war with God till this day. The Bible says, he
will until the ends. There is a Beginning and an End. . .and
his name is Jesus! He is the Alpha and Omega. . .which means
beginning and end! He is our Mighty Counselor and Father and
Friend! He has soooo many titles that so much fit us so we can
live! He came up with this plan? To destroy satan and win us
back! He is the Father , Son and Holy Spirit! He was born in
flesh to know how we fell and feel all we feel. He knows your
every pain and even knows how many hairs on your head!
(Mathew 10:30. . .but the very hairs on your head are all
numbered ) Created you with a grand design! Never intended for
all these lies! He loved us sooooo much that, He gave His only
life! Sooooo, that you and me could be saved from sin. He did
this all from way back when! (The Beginning of Time)
Through one mans sin one had to die! To bring on us a brand
new life! A life sooooo full of riches money can't buy!
Treasures measured out for you and I. See, my reason for
living now is this. . . what God intended satan stole, but
what God has given again for us to hold! He came as a baby and
walked in our shoes to take away all this abuse! He died on a
cross a horrible Death! He was spit on and mocked and parade
in a dress!
See my friend if I can just say, He loved you first. . . Isa
44:2 Thus saith the LORD that made thee, and formed thee from
the womb, [which] will help thee; Fear not, O Jacob, my
servant; and thou, Jesurun, whom I have chosen. . .He has
called you by name! In your mommy womb! He waits for you to
ask Him in your life. He is a gentleman, He will not make you
be His friend.
He will never
give up on you either! He will always be till eternity!
As another scripture would say. . .
( PS 139:8 If I ascend
up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell,
behold, thou art there)
He will always love us! But in Hell.
. . a place, He did not prepare for you or me. He would rather
none of us perish! He only made Hell for satan and his
servants. So my question is this . . . Truth be told . . .there you go.
Its sooooo simple. He just wants you to
let him in your life. He will guide you side by side! When you
feel oppressed and discouraged, know he
who is knocking on your door of life. With the lies that come
in from time to time! and Who! Satan is there to oppress you
and and rob, steal and destroy from you and your loved ones.
Even the ones you don't know or love. He is the reason for
discord and division and hatred and Death! So read in between
the lines of the Bible and stay focused and ask Him to live
within your heart! He awaits and does love you more than you
will ever know! Until you ask
and read His lips! Which are His Words
which is the Bible.
One
last but very important thing to remember. . . when you feel
you
can't and
won't
and maybe don't
understand, when sickness and sorrows and even Death
enter our lives. . . know that it is ok! You can do it! By His
Grace! By His strength! Not yours and not alone! (Philippians
4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me)
This world is not our home. We are just passing through. Gods
awesome love and Grace bestowed on you. You will feel He's not
fair? Its not Him!
Soooo, stay focused and listen to all what He has to say,
by reading the
whole
entire
Bible is when you will say, I got the Way
and the Truth and the Life!
(John 14:6 I am the
way the truth and the life)
I'm sooooo, happy for you and your new
life!
May God Bless You and Keep You!
Num 6:24
The LORD bless thee, and keep thee:
Remember its a choice?
Remember me too please. . . Jcs as
I will expect to . . . " see you on
the other side! "
Thank you:
Holy Spirit for inspiring . . .
because of one that Loved . . . Loved me?
He chose to
Die
to set me free!. . .Jesus. . .Thank You!
Who even created one. . .
Who cared enough on this earth to share with
me. . . Kingdom Keys. . . doorways to life!
Brandon Peace. . . Peace Out! . . .
TY . . .and. . . I Luv yous. . . JCs
