Some of you have read my testimony and know what I've
gone thru and what I'm still going thru but this page isn't about me it's about YOU.

I want you to know I understand what your feeling and
what your going through, people may say "I understand"
when they really don't but I've been thru years of
hell in my life and I get it and I FEEL you.

But, like I said this page is about YOU.

You may be shy and tend to hang out in the corners of
the room away from people. You try to hang away from
your friends if you can help it, because your afraid
you might burst into tears around them.

If you cut, you may shudder away from them for fear
someone will know your secrets. You hide away afraid
of the judgment of the people who pass by you not
even paying attention to the pain you can no longer
hide on your face. Fear keeps you from the people you
used to let in, your afraid of the words they'd say or
the judgment they'd use if they knew your secrets.

You want so badly for someone to reach out and help
you but your afraid to ask for it. you cry yourself to
sleep every night because of the indescribable pain
that has its hold on you.

You hear what other people say, "Come on grow up,
life is tough." Or you hear the amazing life stories of
some people and think how bad you wish that could
happen to you but you think it could never.

Your parents may treat you like trash or they just may
have no clue how bad your hurting.
 
Some of you hurt yourselves and wonder why everyone
seems mad at you your not hurting them your hurting
yourself. You drop down to your knees and cry out can
someone help me please but no one ever answers.

Your biggest fears seem to come true and your life
seems empty and you look by at the passing people
thinking "Why wont anyone help me!? Don't they see?"
Your heart is crying out and your falling to pieces,
and you know you can't do this forever.

No one notices the pain written all over your face as
they talk to their own friends and pass by you like
you don't exist. Your looking for an answer but all you find is more questions.

I want you to know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
 

You may be rolling your eyes or crying even harder
because you think no matter what you do you will be
alone and you cant stand every single night crying
yourself to sleep with the unbearable pain that is
weighing down more on you every day.

LISTEN
There's a reason your reading this.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

Jesus cares.

I know how bad it hurts, but more
importantly He knows.

Please I'm making a plea to you, don't throw everything
away don't hurt yourself again, don't do whatever it is
your doing, listen to me.

YOUR NOT ALONE.
He cares JESUS LOVES U
Hard to believe?

Yeah it is for me too. Why would an amazing merciful
God care about a piece of worthless trash like me? It
still kind of feels weird to hear people say God loves
you.

Hey your life seems like there's no end to this pain,
right?

I said this page is about you and it is if you need me to talk more I'll talk. if you want me to just shut up well I'm sorry I can't do that. you see I told you what happened to me but what I write doesn't quite describe it. now I want to tell you something, first I'll quote some lyrics by
Kutless, its called All alone ...
 

Icy chills round your heart A heart that's made of stone It seems like Life is out to get you To destroy what you want I know that, that you blame me for all that you go through It could be, so different if you would just let it go You're all alone Running out of ways to Hold on to hope And it always slips away You're all alone But you don't have to Pretend to cope There is a brighter way If you would change your perspective You'd see that it is true Life is not always what you want Sometimes it's hard to bear I'd be with you, and help you in all that you go through I love you, let Me change your heart by coming in You're all alone Running out of ways to Hold on to hope And it always slips away You're all alone But you don't have to Pretend to cope There is a brighter way

Ok, this may not be an exact reflection of you but I know it IS some of you. Here's a quote from another song I don't know the name but this just came to me.

"I see you in a group with all your friends. but your
face says something different that what your saying.
no one seems to notice what is playing over and over
in your mind.

I want you to know that I know what it is your going
through. I only want to reach out and take it all
away."

Ok I told you a little earlier I had something to say
to you and I do.

Ok maybe you don't believe in God and maybe you do. but I want to tell you something. what your going through right now, you cannot do without Jesus, your gonna end up falling farther than you already have. you can try to do it on your own but you wont be able to
to those of you just looking for a place to find hope
for your broken life I know where you can go.

It seems like whatever you do nothing gets better, it
seems after all the hurting and the tears no one ever
sees.

But your so wrong, someone does see. Jesus does and he
cares for you.

Hey you need some hope go to him its the only way this
pain or hurting that your going thru is gonna get
better.

I tried to make myself believe things were better but
they weren't. You cant make everything go away but God
can.

This page is about you, so let me go on.

No one understands you, no one will look and see what
your going thru. They're all concerned in their own
little worlds and don't care. no one would care if you
took your life....

Hey its ok.... I know what your feeling I felt the
same thing... Listen to me please do me a favor. I
WOULD care if you took your life, it would kill me to
find out one of you out there killed themselves
because they couldn't take the pain anymore.
 

Hey guess what?

Yeah you probably know what I'm gonna say.
 
God cares if you take your life....

Think about it.
God the one who created you actually cares about you
and do you know how much you hurt if your pets die?
Ok lets say you could create your own specie of people
or something like that.

You watch them grown over years and multiply and you watch their wars, their peace everything you see and you grow to love them, and some of them choose to love you in return. How would you feel if one of them that YOU created killed themselves because of the pain they were feeling.

You'd be more than upset, this creature or person that
you loved and created took their own life. you had a
plan for them and you had a life for them but they
couldn't take the pain inside anymore so they ended it.
you would be upset huh? Well you can't exactly know
how it feels unless you were God.

Jesus died for you and he loves you. no matter what
you think or feel or do it wont ever change.
Hey listen your life is worth something.

YES I know your thinking it isn't but it is.

You're NOT a mistake or trash, your not a screw up your worth something not worthless.

Please try to trust that... I know you probably don't
think so

Hey He loves you.
Yeah He does ...

I'm gonna leave that with you for a little while.

You think about it.