that is the best way I can put it, and just so you know I have always been one that without the rudeness don't normally care what others think....let me explain, my motto so to speak is- I want nothing more than to be a friend to anyone BUT if I feel used or you don't "really" like me you are just friends while I'm standing there type.....I don't need you...sorry but that has always been how I am and reason being is if I consider you my friend then I will be there for you and will always be honest with you and I expect the same, I have changed some over the years, as a teen and young adult I would tell you EXACTLY how I felt about or for you and not care what you felt but I have since learned that is not the way I want to be treated, in closing to you, I am so thankful to have met you and have someone such as you to call me friend please know I dearly value your friendship and pray I never lose it
Vahn thank you so much bro, you are a blessing here and to me as well,I love to hear your insight on things, I would be lost without you and some of the others here at Oasis, you ALL have taught me so much when it comes to the love of the Lord.
Momo..........you brought tears to my eyes, thank you and I love you for being who you are,
I pray one day the Lord sends me someone as understanding and forgiving as those of you here that I call my Oasis family
someone that will see past the dirt and mess in my mind and on my heart
my self worth or ego as some would call it is very small and I know I shouldn't put that in some one else but I know from past feelings when I feel someone is there and she is willing to stand with me and fight for us.....I through my God am invinceable, I know I should be that way with ONLY Him but I believe just as He created eve then He has meant for this to be, I do not remember the exact words but I love this saying, I even researched it and found who wrote it but don't have it handy.
Woman was created from man
She was not of his feet to be walked upon
nor of his mind to out think him
But of his rib to stand beside him
And be loved as his equal
I believe that is the emptieness that some feel when they still know God, I believe some are able to endure life alone but I also believe God made man and woman for those that could not stand alone and fight against satan and his ways, God knew if they were joined together they would be twice as strong and think of this "where two or more are joined together"......Now before someone takes this wrong I know that was not truely meant that way BUT it fits
So for those who feel others are putting thier faith in companionship INSTEAD of God maybe give this some thought
Maybe it's not instead of but "with"
Thank you ALL for being there and understanding, I WILL survive this and any other trials that life may have weather I have that certain someone or not because I DO have my God and He is AWESOME!!!!