Hi Singlemom, and welcome to the Oasis
I have been reading your post and just wanted to say I agree with the others of doing the study
And I wanted to say YOU ARE WANTED AND NO YOUR NOT ALONE! we will be here for you and most importantly
God is ALWAYS there, these feelings you are feeling is something a lot of us have went through or are going through as well so please know you are not alone
These feelings of not being wanted or loved or being the outcast.....are with NO doubt the devils tools to destroy us
he does this in our minds and it is so easy for us to allow him to take our minds over with this and then comes the real battle....surviving
I know this too well cause he has gotten into my mind and said those VERY SAME things he's telling you, I have good days but I have bad ones too
but it is mostly because I allowed satan to play with my mind and tell me no one wants me and will never love me again, and now I struggle on those days I allow him to bring that crud to the surface, but when I can see it coming and go to the Lord and ask He wrap His loving arms around me and show me the blessings of this world and life.......most times I don't even realize it till later but those feelings never got the best of me.
In this study you will come across a part in it of truth or lies and when those lies come you MUST replace them with truth and by doing this satan gets smaller and smaller
I just wanted to reach out and let you know you are not alone and some of us are standing in that same trench RIGHT next to you.
Prayers have been said