Dear Holy Spirit,
I have cried out to you like psalm 22 that I am crying by day and night but I have no rest I have no answer. I a but a worm and not a woman, trouble is near. Holy Spirit I know you hear my cries, and I know you see my tears and begging you to HELP ME!!! I am so worried about my sons and their lives. I do not know how to help them, how to teach them, how to guide them in life except through you but will they hear? I am so troubled by their experiences at school. I homeschooled them and tried to implant in them all about you and your power and love. I was not a good example. I fought and fight and argue with their father. He was wounded so badly as a child in his severly alcoholic home that he is not able to be a good dad to our boys. He lacks empathy and interest in teaching the boys anything. I have it all upon me it seems and I do not know how to do this I cant figure it out. I have made decisions and I dont know if they are right or what next or anything I aM SO LOST AND i DO NOT HAVE FIRENDS TO TURN TO THAT CAN relate to parenting and athletics and how my son Peter is so berated by the coach. You know and saw Peter make 4 errors in the game last night. You saw his face and heard the wrath of the coach to all the players. HOLY SPIRIT intervene in the lives of these young impressionable boys. What are we doing? What do I do? Peter and Joseph do not have the friend connections at the school. They are new they are not from the school neighborhood and they need friends and supportive people in their lives and I feel so weak at times and overwhelmed and I cant figure out how to do all of this what do I do? There are so many problems and I dont see any good alternativeas. Peter has dreamt of this sport since he was four and now he is playing and his confidence and nervousness and mistakes are at an all time high. What Lord What LOrd should we do ??? Should I get Peter psychological help should I ??? How can I help him in life when I feel that perhaps I am the one that has caused him to be insecure? Joseph is wanting friends to interact with and he told me that he does not get invited to anything. Are my sons that different and unacceptable as friends? Are they too nice, too shy, too reserved??? What can I do I have tried everything I know by inviting kids, activiites, special coaches for Peters weaknesses, What can I do I dont know what to do and my heart is troubled for them. My husband will not listen to my concerns, he will not encourage the boys unless I ask him too. He will not help with this area. He will not because he doesnt even know how. He has no empathy!!!!!!!!!! You tell us to ask and seek and knock and that is what I am doing. I am asking you LOrd most HIgh Holy Spirit to teach my sons your ways and protect them from attacks against their self worth. Let them know they are loved by the Almighty and give them courage and strength and boldness to live this hard life and not cave finto the deceitful lies of so called friends, coaches, or any other thing that would crush their spririt HOLY SPIRIT please give them knowledge wisdon and revelation. Give them friends that believe in YOU>> It is so hard here it is so hard to see a path for my sons. The rest of our family is not local. We have no support we are isolated in our lives. we dont interact at church. we are winging it ourselves. You promise that you will give us rest. PPPPLLLLEEEAAASSEEE HELP!!!