Well I actually am here again on Day 2. Thank you Holy Spirit. I do feel kind of shy and afraid. Honestly I have wierd thoughts run through my head, like am I going to stand on a corner speaking tongues and be the crazy lady? Am I going to become over zealous and alienate my family. I know that you Holy Spirit can handle hearing my doubts and fears and will not judge me like I judge others. Please help me not to judge. I invite you into my heart. Speak to me and be my Comfortor. I felt so afraid and alone this morning and the lesson assurred me that is not true. I cried out and You heard me and I am comforted. My heart does not ache all over like it was earlier. I have hope that you will be and are with me. I have wounds trusting people and I have so many past hurts that I think I have dealt with and are gone. Raising my beautiful children brings up my panic and fears. I need your comfort. I have projected into the future and predicted sorrow and disppointment and chaos for my family. My mind thinks it has it all figured out. It thinks that my sons is going to be out of baseball and wont make the upcoming team and will send us all into a tailspin with hurt, broken dreams, unoccupied time and no goals for kid nor us and then no connection between husband kids nor me. We only have baseball as an activity in our lives as a family. I am so thankful that at this moment my mind is not racing with all the negative possibilities like it has been for two days. thank you Holy Spirit. I will rest in you and come back after a nap.