changing my perspective

[crzychik]

Hello all
First I want to thank all of you who have been praying for my son Marcus. I am weak, and at times I feel like giving up the journey...but I know that there is no other road that will lead me and my son to the only thing that we need. I don't need to "spin my wheels".. sooooo
Moving on...
I am changing my perspective on how I handle my son's educational goals...
All of my children have been top students in High School, with full rides to college. Marcus has had his eye on this goal as well, as he is also one of those kids who is an A student, and in the AP classes in High School....
He has been sick and struggling for the last 5 years, and the school has been gracious with him..with a 504 plan in place, and many other helps....I was hoping that he would be able to continue on at the school, as this would allow him an "easy road" to apply for colleges, and scholarships. But................
After his recent surgery, even with the "home plan" from the school, he does not have the strength to continue. Thus his plans, and my "moms" plans for his college...will change.......Its like striving and striving for years and years for a goal...basically to keep up with regular school, so as not to have a "marred" record for college....then realizing you need to change your path.."perspective"......
After much prayer..we have both decided that the "home hospital" school will be the route to take to finish out the semester...and yes, it will change how the colleges look at his applications...
anyway....
The Lord is telling me to let go of control...allow God to work in the situation...trust in His plan for my son....
Give up the "plan" of his college ...full ride...scholarship..whatever I as a mom had in mind.....let God's plan begin..and God my have him go to college or not..but I need to let go and let God.....meanwhile..............
during this season of my son's health problems...he is a teen so I need to keep that in mind, but...........
after all he has gone through, and all I have gone through with him.... when I get the "attitude" from him, it makes me want to say ...Hey! mister! just go to school and struggle then! and see if I help you!
This is where I need advice if anyone can give it? How do I deal with this attitude? I struggle because of his health issues, but also I dont want him to "get away" with stuff....hopefully Im making sense....
I need to find the boundary line and I always seem to get that line wrong! by either being to hard on him, or to easy on him...
I will continue with the Spirit of Truth study
thank you
crzy

[vahn]

Hello , may our Lord bless your day

Though I admit , I have not been following up on the whole picture of your situation , but I did read this post as if it was the first . My reply is based on the content of your post as is written , so some of what I may say , may or may not apply ... I don't know .

Obviously , "Education" or rather , "Higher education" is of "great" importance to you , and of course it should be important , but ..... at what cost ? (and I am not talking monetary) .

May our Lord's Perfect Will , be done .


In Christ , our Lord
vahn

[crzychik]

yes exactly.... the cost is not worth it, as his health comes first,
thank you....I am learning to allow the Holy Spirit to guide......
crzy