His calling...my journey to walk worthy

[mlg]

Finally...a complete day of peace...yippeee!! A much needed day.

I've had wandering sheep on my mind for the last few days. Today a friend told me that people just need to know someone cares about them. How true that is...because I too at times need to know that someone cares about me. What is so interesting is that I am usually the one who is giving, and encouraging, and caring about others. I am usually not the one who receives much...and I don't expect it either...so to be given anything is usually a surprise and a blessing...even if it's a kind word...such as thank you or love you...or an invitation by a friend to dinner...it's a blessing that I cherish for sure...

ok...I wandered off topic here...back to the topic of lost sheep now

So..as I was mentioning I've really had a burden for the wandering sheep here at the Oasis and at my home church. I feel the need to reach out to these souls...and I am...what is so awesome is that I've been talking to God about this as well...and He in turn is showing me new directions He wants me to take in my calling...it's so rewarding to watch as the sheep that have strayed are returning to the fold...and to know that they are back in God's house instead of off in the world...oh how glorious that is for my Father. Makes me smile

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Another delightful day today I just love spending time with my Jesus. Learning more about Him...studying His word...sharing Him with others...I see others who falter at times in their own walk with Him...and how they long for His presence back in their own life...yet they refuse to seek Him...and this hurts...as He is there...they just don't see Him and refuse to look for Him...I can't imagine going one day without seeking the presence of the Lord.

Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from thence thou shalt seek the LORD thy God, thou shalt find him, if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul.

Gotta seek to find...the message I want others to hear...seek Him my friends...seek Him diligently...time nears...tick tock

[mlg]

Trust...it's built over time...but it's torn down quickly...

[mlg]

Protecting my child...

I'm probably over protective at times...but she has been through so very much...a lot that she remembers still but she's placed it away as to not let it haunt her...thank God she's strong in knowing that our past is not what we are now...

I remember a time...it was a Super Bowl Sunday...my ex and I, had a small get together at my house...nene was small then...car comes by the house and people were shooting directly at the house...I grabbed nene and laid down on the floor on top of her...to protect my child...no one was hurt that time...

I remember another time...ex and some friends got in a fight with some guys...the guys found out somehow where we lived...they drove by our house...my nene and I were in the yard...they started shooting in the air thank God it wasn't at us...I grabbed nene and ran in the house...then I called my ex out of the back room and asked him what was going on...he explained about the fight...we were afraid they would come back that night...so we took nene to relatives out of state...to protect my child...

I hurt daily to think what all my precious child has been through...no one can possibly imagine the darkness of my past...yes we have been out of that past for almost 7 years now...but the need to watch over my child and keep her safe is still there...but what is more my past continues to haunt me even today...going on 3 weeks now...my past keeps coming back around....

I wonder if I will ever be truly free from it all.

[mlg]

Ever done something truly stupid...but only cuz you felt like you had no other choice? I did just that this morning...

I received a call around 7 from my dad saying to be careful on my way to work cuz roads were starting to flood...got a call at 8:20 from my housekeeper at work...I was about 1/4 of the way to work...she said road was flooded out on way to work...I told her I was gonna try to go anyway and come a different way...what a stupid mistake that was...about 3/4 way to work...encountered high water...pulled off the road to higher ground...decided I'd sit til it drained off some...sat for two hours...decided that had been long enough and I'd go ahead on towards work...dumb move mlg...yeah I know but I'm stubborn...got over one road...got to next...water over road on one side washing out of bridge...I went on...a bit further encountered water completely over the road...lake was over the road and the bridge was washed out...turned around to go back...and where only half the road had water...the entire road now had water over it...had to go through it....gunned it and prayed...by the grace of God I barely made it through...went back home...shaking and sweating by the time I got back home...but praise God I was ok....closed the club down today...as wanted all employees to be safe...I have worked from home, via cell phone, house phone and internet...it's been difficult but necessary.

My dad called me this afternoon and after sharing with him my story, he said....you know God takes good care of you...I said yes He does Thank you Jesus.

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Have you ever tried to tell God to wait? Kind of funny how He says no way....He will even wake you up in the middle of the night to talk with you...if you refuse Him the audience He wants when He wants it....

May I follow His path always...and hear Him when He calls me to talk...may I write and speak what He inspires and only be a servant to bring Him glory...May He help me overcome my fears and trust Him.

God is love...and God is beautiful...and how I truly love Him

[Dora]

You are a good momma.

The past has made you and your daughter stronger.

You are His and He is proud of you.

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When you are in the will of God and the Holy Spirit is moving...and He has you working for Him...awww it's so wonderful....I just love it...I could stay up all night...but I best not...time to rest and refresh virtue...so He can move some more.

And...I am placing on my armor(headed to read the Word)...as I know that I am open for attack when I'm working for Him.

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This week we are having revival at my church. The Spirit within is just so awesome...you can feel Him flowing over the church...people praising...people confessing their sins before the church...people rededicating their lives to Christ...it's the reawakening of the Spirit that has grown to a small ember instead of the burning flame it once was.

I pray for the Oasis...that the Spirit within would be relit...that His Spirit would move over all of us...and that we would show His light bright and burning...and not look like a burnt out ember.

So many souls that are lost and weary...so many need us to be on Fire for Jesus.

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I'm tired today...a good tired...but a worn out tired. I'm looking forward to a bit of a calmer week this week. Not near as much running...and some time for me to just be still and sit at Jesus feet...I can't wait.

My cup has been filled to overflowing this past week...with the love and Spirit of Him. I have been so excited to go to church everyday and still looking forward to going again. I love to fellowship with my church family and to spend time in praise and worship with Him.

God is so very good and I love Him so. I wonder if at times He smiles upon me...or frowns. I've got so much growing still to do in my life...growing to be more of the Light He wants me to be and less of myself. May He continue to do a work in me and cleanse me of me.

My nene is beginning to find that God is fun. I've seen her smile a lot since she's been home...and right now she's reading a Spirit filled book...one she chose to read. Sure makes me happy to know she is seeking God's presence more. I think it was good for her to be away from me this past week. She saw just how blessed she is to have a mom who loves her. She came home and said...mom I missed you...I was really homesick...I was ready to come home...then she began speaking about college and she said...mom I've been thinking...I want to go to college some place not too far from you. I love my daughter, and when she makes her own choices...they often reflect the Spirit growing within her. May He continue to touch her life...and may He use her do to great things for Him....as she is truly His child.

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Shed many tears this morning...I knew something was wrong yesterday...but it wasn't until this morning when the news was dropped on me like a bombshell....my past has come back to haunt me again...and I just had to pull over to the side of the road and cry...I was 30 minutes late to work...I called a friend as I needed someone to talk with...this friend helped me see what I couldn't at the time as I was looking at the problem instead of through it....I got to work and shared my situation with a couple of people who I thought could help me...and they gave me suggestions...I worked on the problem for hours...and could think of nothing else at work...I might as well stayed home...but finally I found peace in the situation....now it's just a waiting game...I could sit and think of all the what if's...but as my friend told me this morning when I said what if...my friend said what if you get hit by a bus today and die...I mean does it really matter in the grand scheme of things? At first I thought it did...but now I see that maybe this was God's way of giving me a blessing...and I was seeing only the bad part and not the blessing...a small blessing...but a blessing just the same.

I know this sounds weird...but I've had several members here checking on me yesterday and today...saying they sensed something...I honestly didn't know what was coming....but now I see what they were sensing...they said they were praying for me and still are...I am so thankful that Holy Spirit sends prayer warriors to lift us up in our time of need.

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Ahhhh! what a nice couple of days it's been. I slept last night like I haven't slept in a long time. I woke up this morning feeling renewed and refreshed. Such peace...I had a great 4th of July...spent time with my parents...and we had so much fun. Yesterday I wanted fireworks...but didn't tell my parents...my dad mentioned he wanted to go to the store...so I just casually stated I wanted to go with him....then he asked my mom if she wanted to go...she said yes...so when we got in the truck...I casually again slid in the fact that we could stop by the fireworks stand on the way home and let me get some fireworks. Dad and I had a blast picking on really good fireworks...and as the evening wore on my dad got more and more excited...he kept saying...when we gonna do this...I kept saying at dark dad...so finally a bit before dark...he says...don't ya think we should test one of these? I said sure dad let's go test one. You'd think my dad was 14 instead of 64....We popped fireworks for 1 1/2 hours. We had some company...and great food....and today mom made homemade icecream...and it was sooo good! I needed these last couple of days...no worries, no thoughts...just peace and refreshment!