Hiya all
Today God spoke to me in a way that was weird and kind of unexpected...
Basically in my room I have a pink bucket...the kind you put bath stuff in...
I decided to clean in out and when I turned it upside down it had a sticker on the bottom
I randomly really wanted to take it off but It was very very stuck to the bottom
About an hour later I will still trying to get it off..
But I just wouldn't let myself give up
And then I had a thought...
As some of you may know I love running
I love the sensation of it and I love to race
I may not be amazing but I still love it
Anyway when I run long distance
often I push myself too hard because I want to win and do well
Sometimes I push myself so hard that I can't breathe
People around me tell me to give up and stop
But I just can't;, I have to reach the finish line!
Its almost as If I don't I will be a failure...
And failing is something I have never liked
A few times I have had asmtha attacks and stuff because of it
But when I cross the finish line I feel relieved.. I usually end up falling to the floor
because I can't even stand afterwards but I feel like I have achieved something.
God said something to me while I was sitting there trying to get the sticker off
and that was this
"You don't need to push yourself so far that you break, you don't have to win all the time because it doesn't mean you are a failure and I will still love you!"
It really hit me
Not something I was expecting
so I put down the bucket and left it... without feeling like a failure for giving up because God stills loves me anyway.