Momof3's journal

[xxJILLxx]

Momo,


I love you sister, I pray as He blessed you the same way coming in that He will bless you as you partake on this new path that He leads you on. I trust that you will be a vibrant tool in His work abroad, as you have been here.

You have touched my life in so many ways sister, i thank the Lord for the priveledge of knowing such a beautiful soul and will continue to keep you and yours in my thoughts, prayers and close to my heart.

I hope and pray you do make it to Oasis on occasion and tell us how u and yr boys are doing. I will miss you.

Until we meet again sister.
With all my love and His blessing,
♥Jill

[vahn]

MOMO !!!!

I was told not long ago that my soul had changed....

(((( BY WHO ??? ))))


Soul NEVER changes , the MIND DOES ! . Our Soul , If it at all changes , It can ONLY go UPWARD -Closer to Him ! .

The mind however , Hah ! Who knows ? The East wind blows , we head East , the West , West , North , North , South , we head South .
Oh look what happened . E+W+N+S = World ! We know who controls that one don't we ?


Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord

[Lani]

God Bless and Keep you sis.

Thank you for all you have done for and shared with me during this season.

I will miss you more than words can even express and through tears, I cannot type.

Please come visit soon!!!

Peace and Love to you my dear sis

[momof3]

A few weeks ago I was telling someone I didnt know how to pray these days. I would start and then stop after the first 2 sentences or so. I would get frustrated..not being able to find the words to say to the Lord..then i'd just go to sleep. None of the sleep was peaceful, though. There were things the Lord wanted to show me....and wanted me to hear. When i did sleep, dreams were chaotic. I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to fix things, trying to get some organization back into life, battling things that I couldnt straighten out. In my waking hours Id try to pray for members here, for the site, for everyone else...avoiding the deep things that He wanted to talk about. Have you seen "Bruce Almighty" ? The part where Morgan Freeman who played God asked Bruce to pray? Bruce said " God, bring peace to the world and feed the hungry" or something to that effect.....and God said "That was great, if you wanna be Miss America"

While I know the Spirit prays for us even when we dont know how to pray for ourselves...and YES....He DOES want us to pray for ourselves....He wants us to come to Him with whatever is in our hearts. Even if its anger toward Him. This anger is a stumbling block. Its not as if He doesnt already know its there. And its not as if He cant understand it..or handle it. His shoulders are big enough and He doesnt think the way we do. He's not angry at me for being angry with Him. His heart is breaking because Ive let it come between Him and me.

A long time ago, He showed me some things that He wanted to do in and through my life. I was sure I was standing on solid ground and would not be shaken..till the death of the baby, that is. I couldnt reconcile in my mind how if Id had so much faith that the baby would be fine....and give Him glory and praise through the pregnancy..KNOWING the baby would be ok....well, when the twists and turns took place...I was knocked off my feet. Pride....saying it should have happened the way I believed...I did this, I had that much faith in You.....on and on and on.....pride...against God and His divine plan.

Phillip sent a picture to me of baby Zachary. My daughter in law here bought a beautiful frame for the picture with another window beside the frame. The Lord brought to mind the verse in Matthew to print and place in this window...Jesus said, suffer the little children to come to me for such as these are the Kingdom of Heaven. I knew this..my head knew it, but like in the book "The Shack", the Lord reminded me that I was feeling deep inside that He didnt love baby Zach well enough by allowing what happened to him happen. Oh, how our flesh is so different from the Spirit.

Phillip and Mae are pregnant again. This is their third baby. The first 2 are with the Lord....Phil called the other day to tell me it was confirmed that she is almost 9 weeks along. After joy and tears and release...and thanking the Lord....the fear hit. God really left me no choice but to pour my heart out to Him..with every single ugly thing Id held onto.

Lord willing, Phil and Mae will be back in the states by March at the latest. The Army wants her to be here for her third trimester. Phillip's dad is a Viet Nam veteran, who was exposed to Agent Orange. That exposure mutated his dad's dna...and Phil's greatest fear was that whatever had happened to cause the first two baby's to be lost and ill was passed on to him from his father. The military Dr. told him that what happened to those babies had nothing to do with that. The accidental overdose with baby Zach was just that...nothing to do with his DNA...neither was the condition baby Zach was born with.

I guess in all of this Im thankful...I know the Lord is good..even when we dont understand why things happen the way they do..but I know He will use this. Im thankful for the trials..and im thankful for the brokeness He alllowed...the fruits of it are humbling.

During my time of running, I heard a song. Its not, per se, a Christian song, but my spirit heard His voice and heart in it...kinda like a conversation with the Lord....

Little Wonders Songwriters: Thomas, Rob

Let it go, let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know the hardest part is over?
Let (Me) it in, let your (My) clarity define you (Holy Spirit)
In the end we will only just remember how it feels (bringing us back into the fruits of the Spirit)

Our lives are made in these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours still remain

Let it slide, let your troubles fall behind you
Let (Him) it shine until you feel it all around you
And I don't mind if it's Me you need to turn to (in fact, I hope you will)
(Together) We'll get by, it's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made in these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate (trials, tribulations, times of joy, etc make us who we are in Him)
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours still remain

All of my regret will wash away somehow (through the healing and grace of the Lord)
But I cannot forget the way I feel right now
In these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twists and turns of fate!

Time falls away, yeah but these small hours
And these small hours still remain, yeah
Oh they still remain
These little wonders, oh these twists and turns of fate.......

(emphasis, the Holy Spirit)

These trials and tribulations we go through will grow us in Him, if we let Him work through them. God's bigger plan..His infinate wisdom..they work together for our good. Praise Him through these storms. Its not easy but He wont give up on us. He understands us completely.

Im asking all of you who read this to be in prayer for my son and his wife and this new hope she is carrying. Im also asking you to thank Him for everything that happens in your life, cuz everything that He allows is part of His purpose for your life.

Thanks for reading my ramblings. God is good...in ALL things.

I truly do love you all...and AM praying for each one of you, now that He has broken down those walls i put up. He is God..and we are not.

In Jesus,
love momo

[xxJILLxx]

Amen momo


Love u much sister

God bless your family.

♥Jill

[momof3]

The past few months have been......nothing short of awesome. Ive missed being here so very much it hurt. My Aunt went to be with the Lord on the 4th of this month. During my time away from here, the Lord allowed me to care for my aunt the way she needed to be cared for in her last months.

Although Phil was extended again in Korea, the Lord opened the door for him to come home for her funeral. He was to remain in Korea till the end of June. I cant tell you how much healing took place when I saw his face...and we were able to grieve baby Zach together. It is now well within my soul. Their lil girl is due July 4th. We are truly blessed. Phil went back to Korea this morning but the time He allowed us to share during this last week was like a new fresh breath of cleansing, healing air.

I am also blessed to be back home....here at Oasis. Ive missed you all so very much...I cant even find the words to describe it. Im so looking forward to getting back to where the Lord has called me to be. It took a while to get through this last trial..and only by the grace of God, did we make it.

I love you guys so very much. Thank you for not giving up on me..and for your life sustaining prayers.

In Jesus,
love momo

[Mercy7]

[Dora]

I'm so late in reading these journals! Just wanted to say your blessings made me smile. Glad to hear there is healing. Glad you're back!

Love you!

[goldieluvs]

mom!!! welcome back, have really missed you

GBU