Leaps's Journal

[Leaps4Joy]

December 30th, 2009


These days seem forever long here lately.... Im not sure why..

Probably because I want school to start so bad and its going so slow and
not getting there....

New Schedule when i get back.... wahooooo

Nothing major though just one new class and then one class was moved
to a different hour.... Just moved up I guess Went from Choir 1
to Choir 2


Its been a rough last couple of days.... Having to let some people go in my
life because of various reasons..... Had to delete them, block them, and
completely ignore...

Iv learned one person can only take so much drama, so many lies, and
being told what to do for so long before they blow up and get delete happy
etc. But I feel this was the best thing to do for now... Maybe in the long
run they can be re added etc. but for now this is best...

I can find people that I trust and i guess thats what matters... as long as
im letting it out and have someone to talk to and express how I feel then
im doing good...

WithOUT gossip of course...


For those of you have have been there in any way, shape, or form..


I appriciate it more then you know!!!


GBu all!

[Mackenaw]

Hello Leapsy

I love you, dear Leapsy.

I'm glad to see The Lord is with you, and you are following His lead, even in the sometimes difficult decisions. His love is not compromised -- we can still love from a distance, those we need to separate ourselves from for a season. Pray for them. Prayer is such a blessed expression of love.

God bless you, sweet Leapsy.
Love,
Mack

[Leaps4Joy]

Hello Mackenaw!

I love you too, Mack!!!!


Im glad he is with me also, Iv always known he is with me , but it seems I can see him even more now Im glad I have him esp. in this kind of time.... Rather difficult at times to deal with some of these decisions, that i have made here lately.... yes Love from a distance and thats what im doing.... Keeping away but still lovin at a distance.... Best choice for now... But thats ok....

God Bless you Mack as well!!


And thanks for being there

[Leaps4Joy]

January 2, 2010


The New Year has started and there are several things that I would like to change.... Beginning with my family..... Many things need to be done so that the family can get along and get rid of the fights etc.

1. Drama (This is a big prob. in my family because when someone finds out information they have to go and spread it and cause more issues then there were to start with)

2. Liars (Many in the family love to do this, to make themselves look good for whatever reason there might be... Going to try working on this to help keep the family together)


Many things that I dont understand that go on in my family and that is going on in my family. But I guess God will show me later on in the future or it just isnt that important for me to understand... There are other things to worry about.

Im working on getting closer to him, and going to him through everything... He is the one that understand the best and the one that can give me be best information that I need.... It may NOT be what I want to hear but it will be useful information that I can use and some how change a situaton in someway or another... For the Bad maybe, maybe not.. for the good possibly... I dont know because its not my choice.....


This last week has been a learning week... On who I can and cant talk to , and on who I can and cant trust with certain information.... I have also learned who my real friends and family are.....


Was a very learning week that I think I need so very much.....



This quote has been very useful to me this last week...


"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

It explains it all...



GBu all


This is all for now...


Love ya all

[momof3]

I love you lil sis. He will continue to lead you....of this there is no doubt. Keep focusing on Him and His will, leapers. He will work out all the other stuff in His time.

love you girl...and know you and your family are in every prayer.

In Jesus,
love momo

[Leaps4Joy]

January 14th, 2010


Wow, has this been a long week or what??


Monday started out great... Got to go back to school.. Had physical

therapy missed part of spanish (not a great thing) Started getting caught

up from the 2 snow days.... I wake up Tuesday morning with pink eye in

my left eye... Ok im used to it.... No school tuesday... Not that big of a

deal.... Tuesday night it wasnt looking any better... So that ment no

school Wednesday... Im getting a lil aggervated because I was nearly 3

days behind in work.... I took a nap yesterday.... I wake up and I have

pink eye in my right eye... Yep you got it... No school again Today aka

Thursday... Now that im 4 days behind in work..... and have 0% in one

class and a 32% in another.... I finally get to get my homework etc

today...... Tomorrow isnt looking to promising for school but we shall wait

and see what happens.... The Lord has me in this and I know there's a

reason behind EVERYTHING... But not going to school all week... Is rather

upsetting for someone that loves school.....



On a better note... I have a new brace..... This seems to be working and

keeping ankle in place.... Surgery is being pushed back because they are

hopeing surgery wont be needed... They added another month to my

physical therapy to see if its going to help....



I finshed a letter this week and vented some anger... I never knew how

much writing a letter to someone can help.. But I tell ya what it does


The last 2 weeks have been great with my "New Years Resolutions" many

things have fallen into place.... Iv taken out as much drama as I possibly

can and i havent had "to much" of an issue with liars..... Im not gonna say

I havent came into a battle with someone that has lied but its going alot

better then it was...


Last week I found out an early Birthday gift because I had to get my dad's

permission to go.... I found out on the day of my birthday Im heading to

Florida.... I will be gone for 10 days.... Were gonna take a trip to Disney

and go to the TBN place down there as well.... Should be a fun and

exciting trip.... Iv never been to Florida... Never made it past Tennessee

and North Carolina.... We are driving so its gonna take a bit longer but

its gonna be fun and get to spend some time with my Cousin and her

husband and the God Children





Hoping everyone is doing well..


Gb and Love ya all!!

[Leaps4Joy]

January 27th, 2010


So I think something has been going on inside of me and the Lord was trying to work through that. I missed 8 days of school total in 10 days. I kept asking myself why does this keep occuring? Why do I keep missing school? First it was pink eye.... now its a fever that wont break. I just didnt understand. I talked to a few here on Oasis, as i was going through this time. Kept being told to pray. I kept praying but nothing came. Nothing at all. Then someone said.... maybe i wasnt listening completely or he was waiting for the right time. So as I continued to pray, i listened more closely to see if I could hear him speaking back. Took a day or so... But then IT CAME! I realized what he had been trying to tell me. I went to school the next day... I still lhad a fever but I felt the urge to go. Im one of them really weird kids that like schooll you know... so missing 8 days was way to much for me.


Today has been an off day.... more of a depressing day... .the enemy is trying to get at me and im trying so hard to keep strong and stand strong... This.... is NEVER easy. .But because I have Jesus by my side its possible....



this be all for now

love ya all

[Leaps4Joy]

Febuary 2 ,2010

OH MY WORD!!!!


Its febuary already!!!!!

Wow....

Where did the last month go... if only I knew


Its been an ok week... the last 2 days have been good days... which is rather odd, but it makes me soooooooooooooo happy!!!

Last week I had a prob. at school because someone had the nerve to threaten to shoot me... in a non jokeing manner... so that was a 2 day process dealing with that..... The kid is gone... wont see him again... so no worries there...All my work is caught up at this point and im hopeing to keep it that way.... Had physical therapy again today.... she said I need to make an appointment with my reg. doc because im doine in there on friday.... she said that it isnt helping so there is no reason for me to be in there.... sooooo there is one step left... and thats the last one that they and myself wanted but if it is what is needed then I guess im for it... because if they dont then its gonna cause more issues then I already have... there saying surgery is about all I have left at this point....

Please pray that the right decision is made and that if this is what is needed that it isnt very painful and I heal quickly....


I love you all!!!

[Leaps4Joy]

Febuary 9th, 2010


Snow Snow Snow, and oh More snow!!!!!


This is insane!!!!!

we got about 5-6 inches of snow out there....

Its blowing like mad -5 wind chill


Its nasty.,,, They let us out of school early today

Has happened 2 times in the last 15 years....

many are hoping for a snow day tomorrow...

I myself am one of them...

I about got into an accident this morning after getting stuck in the
intersection. Then coming home, some car pulled out in front of me...


So no school tomorrow would be nice


Physical Therapy is done FOR NOW...

I must got see an orthopedic surgon asap...

They believe its my ligament that is torn...

IDK I pray the Lord shows them what to do and what the right decision
in this is...



Got my schedule for Jr. year next year... its rather... interresting to say
the least... iv got 10 classes total.. school starts at 7:04and end at 3:12
another hour has been added to my schedule.. and at this moment I can
be done at the end of my Jr. year.. providing all goes well.... and the talk
with my principal and counselor go well....


Hope everyone is staying warm!!!

I shall post pics tomorrow! :D


Love you all

[Leaps4Joy]

Febuary 27th,2010


Its been forever since iv wrote anything it seems.... Many things have changed that is for sure.... and im still working on it and getting used to everything.....

Things got rather nasty for awhile.... and I was moved into my own room away from everyone.... The school was getting into the issue and it was an all around mess..... during this time this song kept going through my head and kept me going:


PRAISE YOU IN THIS STORM


I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus


Things are slowly getting better..... and God has showed me he IS there and that he does and will anwser prayers in his timeing.....


He has also placed someone else in my life.... After praying for a month about someone..... I cont. to pray daily that if THIS is the right person that God make it known, but if it isnt that he somehow takes this person out of my life and make it where I couldnt talk to him.... Well things slowly went on.... and then last night... My dad started talking about Boyfriends etc. not more then 10 min. later I recieve a text message asking if id be this guys gf..... After asking my dad... without hesitation he said I could...... Which isnt like my dad.... Never been told yes..... nor has my sister..... So its def. God working here......


I cont. to praise him for what he is doing, and will cont. to pray that his will be done in this relationship..... For those of you that i have talked to for a llong time... No worries.... I am moving very slowly and nothing stupid will be done.....


I ask that you all pray for my dad and I and that we can work EVERYTHING out.....


Thanks and Gbu all!

[Leaps4Joy]

March 5, 2010


Today is my sisters birthday..... Wow shes 14 already! I remember when she was 5 and was so mean and nasty. I thank God for her daily despite the fact we dont get along most of the time. At times it gets rather nasty actually....

This week iv been back and forth between counselors trying to get many things worked out, and figured out... Some girl wants to beat me up tomorrow Sadly its in my house where she wants to do it.... So i think im going to be leaving for the night....

I finished "THE SHACK" Today... Im not sure what to think about it actually... its rather different that is for sure.... Was a good book but was a different perspective I guess....... Looking for a new book so anyone with a suggestion PLEASE let me know!!!

If you all dont mind, please keep my dad in your prayers.... he was taken to the ER last night with major pain. So they gave him shots to help deal with it. Its not a good sign to say the least...




Wednesday and Thursday i ended up leaving my house for most of the night, and went up to my aunts house to get away from all of the stuff going on at my house..... Was so nice to be able to go away, get away from everything for a bit....


Its been so nice here in the last few days..... 50+ degree's etc. Spring time is coming! :D We got 9 weeks left of school!! It sooooo doesnt seem like it that is for sure.... This year has gone by so fast.... doesnt seem as if we have been in school that long... sheesh...


Well I think this is all for now..

Gbu all!!


Thanks for reading

[xxJILLxx]

.

Love u dear lil sis!


Gbu

keeping yr dad in my prayers

♥Jill