Christianity Oasis Forum

[Mackenaw]

Hello Dora (((hugs)))

God bless you this day.

I'm hoping that with warmer weather that we'll all get a huge dose of positive and healthy energy.

I know you see doctors quite regularly, but have you gone to your GP lately and had a complete physical? I don't know if this applies to you, but your symptoms sound similar to some possible side effects from prescription medication. Again, I don't know if it applies to you, but may be worth checking it out.

Sometimes the symptoms of depression present during childhood, but I think the majority of depression symptoms manifest in adulthood. And yes, depression tends to run in families -- but we shouldn't place fault, nor carry the guilt either. Lay it at the feet of Jesus. Your prayers are precious, and your encouragement in sharing the love of Christ will help quiet the storms in their lives.

Continue to fight the good fight of faith, Piney. Hold on to the love, joy and peace the Lord is bubbling up inside of you. The Lord loves you all so very much.

By the way, I think it is awesome you pray for those to whom you are delivering mail. Praise God!

Prayers are rising to The Lord in the name of Jesus on behalf of you and your family. God's will be done.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

[Dora]

Thank you Mack for your response and your concern. I am due for my yearly physical. I cancelled it because I had to work that day and never rescheduled because I think I need to change physicians. I don't change because this one knows so much about me. I need to make up my mind. Great idea though. I also see my psychiatrist every 6 weeks now instead of every 3 months. I don't know why he's requesting that.

[Dora]

Mackenaw, When I went to work yesterday I was frustrated from having to clear the snow off my car. My wipers were frozen to the windshield. I remembered your words to have a positive day despite the weather. I put a smile on and tried to forget what was happening outside. After a few hours I realized the difference between a negative outlook and a positive one. Everyone was so grumpy from the weather. I did get stuck twice on my mail route and needed pulled out both times. I had someone there within minutes helping me. I was so grateful. Any way what you said really stuck.

There is a guy at work that is Unbelievable. He is a christian or at least he says he is and goes to church. He works a lot at his church, for a fee. He did work for free for a time. Anyhow at work he talks about how he can't stand any of us. He talks about horrible things. Yesterday he was talking about a person who was raped. (One of his milder stories) It triggered me. Then he talked to the guy behind me about guns. I have told him before it triggers me when he talks about guns because of my past. I really don't mind people talking about guns, I'm interested in them. It's just he is a bit psychotic and unmedicated so I don't trust him. If there's a postal shooting in the post office I work for he would be the guy. He walks around bragging about himself at such a loud level everyone can hear. Like I said unbelievable. I've prayed for him often. Nothing I say to him seems to stick. At first I thought he had self image problems but after getting to know him over the years he's been there I think he is very swelled up in himself. He really feels good about himself and things he's done.

[Dora]

I woke one morning and asked the Lord to take me on a life long adventure with him. This was last week. Now I'm going through testing to see if my physical problems are Multiple Sclerosis. MS for short. When walking my legs quit working. They wont hold me up. It's been going on for a year and a half but I was told to exercise more. Now it's getting to the point I'm not sure if I can keep working.

I'm sad. I had a goal once to be a mom and God blessed me with that. Now my kids are grown I began another goal. To go full time at work. I thought this was Gods plan as well. Now my goal has been crashed. My future is uncertain. So many questions. Will I be able to work much longer? Will we loose the house? Medical bills are already over our head in debt from my therapy bills, psychiatrist bills, my husbands doctor and lab bills.

God has been with me this far, I know he wont abandon me. I do wonder what kind of adventure is he taking me on that needs me disabled to do. I know one of my gifts is the gift of prayer. It doesn't pay the bills but with being disabled I will be able to pray more often. Just to clear things up I'm not on disability yet. It's just how fast I'm loosing my body functions and how fast the symptoms of ms are increasing.

My daughter doesn't know about this yet. I don't know if I should wait till it's confirmed through the MRI of my brain. I feel like I've already been such a burden to my family because of the PTSD issues and drinking.

I told my aunt last night about the tests. She said she'd like to go with me to be by my side so I don't have to go it alone. My mom and sisters don't know yet. They will be crushed.

It's nearly six a.m. I can hear the rooster crowing from the barn. It makes me smile. I have so much peace from the Holy Spirit. I have such a hard time meditating on just Him. My mind won't stay focused. It's like a monkey. I have monkey mind.

Thanks for reading. God bless! Stay close to Him. Xo

[Mackenaw]

Hello Piney...aka Dora

It is good to hear from you.

I understand the challenges that come with illness and physical limitations, but, as long as we focus on The Lord: the indwelling of The Holy Spirit, and the name of Jesus on our lips and The Word in our heart, and reverence for God The Father, we will be comforted.

Medical tests can be a bummer, but, hold tight to your faith in Christ. He will never leave or forsake you.

I continue to lift you up in prayers to our Lord in the name of Jesus. God The Father's will be done.

I love the mention of the rooster. It made me smile, too.

God bless you and your family, Dora.
Love,
Mack

[Dora]

Thanks Mack. I couldn't get in for a while.
I do feel peace. Thursday is my appointment with the neurologist. I'll probably be a nervous reck. But I'll try to continue to trust in God.
Yesterday I had to go to urgent care for an eye infection. Today I was in urgent care with shingles.
My right leg didn't work good enough and I fell into the car. Honestly at this point I just laugh.
I sure do appreciate the prayers. I know I'm going through all this for a reason and maybe it's just to build my faith. Which he is doing.

[Real]

May His will be done. Do all unto His glory.

[Dora]

Oh my good Thank you and God bless you brother.

I do not have MS. Thank God. I see an arthritis doctor next month about the pain and weakness. I hope they can figure this out. I'm able to work but barely. Praise God I can work. My husband is in the same boat. Work is very difficult physically. I'm not sure how many more years he can make it. God will provide. He has always provided.

I keep breaking out with shingles from the stress. I'm trying very hard to relax and not stress. I think it's the life long PTSd and other anxiety that I have learned to live with that's keeping me stressed. I'm trying to learn to relax.

I keep thinking of something Mack told me a long time ago. That God has given me a strong mind.

You all are so kind and loving. I love yas so much.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Piney (((hugs)))

God bless you this day.

Good news about not having MS. I continue to pray to our Lord in the name of Jesus on your behalf, that doctors will find a way to ease your pain. God's will be done.

Amen! God has given you a strong mind.
II Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

The Word of God helps me in my daily walk. This particular verse has helped me so many times that I've lost count. Remember one of the suggestions in the CCCC Study -- write Bible scriptures on post-it notes and place them where you will see them. You could begin with that scripture.

Jesus loves you, Dora.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

[ciny]

Hi Pine thank you Jesus you do not have MS praying for you in Jesus name for healing and relief from the pain and for you to be able to work i have been diagnosed with Arthritis and may have trigger finger God bless you !

[Dora]

Thank you Ciny hug!

I’m doing wonderful. Seven years of counseling and therapy and I’m free from depression and an it. My path to healing started here at Oasis. I thought I’d be sick forever from the childhood abuse but God had other plans. God is good.

Love you all.

[ciny]

Your welcome Dora (pine) ((hugs)) back to you amen God is our healer and great physician thank you Jesus you are free from depression !