Papple's journal

[pineapple-lump555]

I htought i'd give this a go too, tho i've never been good at keeping journals..

Today has been eventful, and its not even noon yet! I have not been feeling well, woke up at 2am with a cold, and finally dropped off again about 3am, i woke up about 7 this morning feeling worse.


About a week ago, i was asking God what he wanted me to do this year, and he gave me an idea for something i call 365 ways in 365 days. Every day this year, i am setting myself a challenge, and doing that challenge that day, and commenting on it. Today, the challenge i had was to think of ten good things that had happened to me today. Well, this certainly is challenging for me today, as i am sick , tired, and frustrated.

But still, It is supposed to challenge me, so i thought i'd show my list so far.
Ten good things that happened to me today

1. I got a cold (this doesn 't seem like a good thing, but being sick brings me closer to God, i tend to spend more time with him when i don't feel well.

2. Christian Music-I hzave been listening to worship music all morning and i love this kind of music, cause it takes my mind off whjats happening to me, and makes me look to God

3. Dad cut off our water- i know this doesn't seem like a good thing, but sometimes we have to lose something to realise how grateful we are for it. (dad is renovating the bathroom so he has to cut our water for a while) i think of all these ppl who don't have any clean water, and we have it at the touch of a tap. Such a blessing.

wow this is hard will have to think of more stuff later.


I have had a song in my head today, one that we play frequently at my youth group, called big. Goes like this..


Chorus
"My God is big
So strong, so mighty
My God is good
He's so good to me

Bridge
"he's my God, and he is my refuge
he's the rock on which i stand
he's my fortress
God, he is my life
He holds the oceans in his hands

i dunno the rest of the sonjg, but its great coz it reminds me how great our God is (now i've got how great is our God in my head)


also i keep thinking about a quote that was in our church newsletter last sunday, it said
"if your not as close to God as you used to be, who moved?"

off to blow my nose again, and to finish that list!

[lizzie]

lumpydoodles!

I luv u!

365 ways in 365 days

awww what an awesome concept

only 7 more to go to complete today

Blessing to u lil muppet

[pineapple-lump555]

9 janurary sat


Today i feel so clumsy! It seems whenver i go to work i do something clumsy and i feel like am letting my boss down. Today i knocked a boxof biscuits off te shelf and most of them broke.


I feel so helpless today, i have kept my feelings cooped up for so long without telling anyone and now, when i am letting them out, it feels good, but yet for some reason i feel as if i am letting myself down..people have always asked me...do u ever stop smiling? or told me what a sunny personality i have, and inisde i am going, yeah, u really don't know me do ya!

I haven't really opened up since i was like eleven, and so the pressure begins to build it up.Usually end uo breaking down and crying for a few hours from asll the stress every 4 months or so. I feel i must let all this out today or i will blow.

I feel like i am letting every1 down. My boss, my family, my friends, my workmates...all of them. The enemy is pushing all my buttons, he knows hiow to get to me. I feel like i can't do anything right. Oasis is such a blessing, the friendship and fellowship here has helped me so many times to pull myself together when i feel i can't face another day, God is so good, he has led me to a place he knows will do me good.

Malachi chapter 3 talks about silver. God says that he sits like a refiner of silver. To refine silver, the refiner must hold it in the hottest part of the fire, so that it burns away the impurities. But even through this lengthly process, he nevertakes his eyes off it for a second. Even if he looks away just for one second, it could be ruined. God does that with us. He may hold us in the flame, but he never takes his eye off us.

And as we all know from those burnt fingers as young children, fire hurts! We are like children, coming to oyur father with a broken toy, sayin "fix it daddy! Pleae fix it! Why aren't u fixing it??? And the father is saying, "how can i fix it, if you won't let go?"God never promised that when we became christians our lives would be problem-free and always happy. But he did promise, that whatever came our way, he would help us through it.


These lyrics of a song in my head..

Held by Natalie Grant

This is what it is to be loved
and to know
that the ormise was when everything fell
we'd be held

And Praise u in this storm by casting crowns

was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen",
and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth



Praise is an amazing thing, it changes ur perspective and point of view, it takes ur eyes of your circumstances and makes u look to God, when we are lost in our circumstances we can only see our troubles and how we feel, but when we look to God, we can see the bigger picture and see that God is with us through it all.


God is good!

[pineapple-lump555]

a wild boar tried to get our chickens today. Completely freaked me out. We don't live on a farm or anything so it was freaky to see a wild boar on our property. dad grew up in this house and he said, in all the years he has lived here, this has never happened beofre. We think it xcame out of the bush acroos the road. I had to take a walk to calm down as i was freaked out and am now using the computer instead of cleaning as i am still not completely calm. aaah i hope it doesn't come back.

[foreverHis]

your an awesome little kiwi lumps....

[momof3]

And as we all know from those burnt fingers as young children, fire hurts! We are like children, coming to oyur father with a broken toy, sayin "fix it daddy! Please fix it! Why aren't u fixing it??? And the father is saying, "how can i fix it, if you won't let go?"God never promised that when we became christians our lives would be problem-free and always happy. But he did promise, that whatever came our way, he would help us through it.

what words of wisdom, lil sis! and an awesome reminder. We all tend to do that at times dont we? gotta remember to give it to Him when we want it fixed. Someone said to me the other day..we were talking about my boys..and she said...youre a good momma, sis. i thought..wow, thank you, and ...O.O and said, sis..only by the grace of God..cuz i made tons of mistakes along the way but God is faithful in fixing my messes ...if we let Him. He is awesomely full of Grace..even when He is refining us.

God bless you, sis. Love you! and dont feel so pressured into pleasing people and lettin the enemy tell ya you are a disappointment..cuz you arent..you are a blessing from the Lord above.