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[haydenmw]

I am not sure were to post this I have been scouring the forums and see no right place. But i need some answers.
I want so desperately to try and learn more about christianity but i haven't found a person i can ask questions to and get answers from so i am excited to try here.
First off I seem to have an amazingly hard time in just trying to believe that there is a God, i have been raised christian my whole life and i want to believe it so badly and i have tried so hard to try and believe but to me all i feel is empty, like there is no one out there, no created no father, no one.
I have cried out literally for a sign, for anything and all i felt was empty.
So i am asking, how do you, real christians truly believe?
This to me is so scary because it ties into every part of my life, especially a big one for me is death. Death petrifies me because i feel like God isn't there for me so when i die, what will become of my brain were will it go, i will just stop what becomes of me, i am so terrified and that is the main reason i wish to connect with God, is for an after life, because at this moment i do not know what will happen to me.
I have asked God to come into my live and prayed to be a Christian many times, but it always felt false, like God would not accept it.

I just need some help, I don't know what I am expecting but anything I think would help at this point I have been searching for so long and feel so lost and helpless.

[deetu]

hi hayden, nice to meet you
I was once like you so I can understand how you feel.
For me, my first experience with God came from a miracle healing. My sister prayed for my back and it went back into alignment. My back felt great and my sister was praying to Jesus to heal it sooo...
I went looking for a church.

Sometimes there is a spirit of religion over someone to keep them from feeling what God has to offer them. Or something they learned or vow they said and didn't know or mean. Sometimes a person will not recognize that God is talking to them. He will sound like your conscience so you may dismiss what you hear thinking it is your own thoughts. Or an image may come to your mind and again you dismiss it wondering why you thought that.

My suggestion to you hayden, look for a church. Not just any church but a live church, filled with the Spirit.
the only church I know in Canada is Toronto http://www.catchthefire.com/
This is the kind of church you should look for that will make you feel alive in, that you will see different.
Have them pray over you to break you free and release the Holy Spirit in your life.

Also here on the site is a fantastic study. http://www.christianityoasis.com/cccc/forum.htm Check it out
Any questions you have as you do the study, you can post on the connected forum and people will answer and encourage.

Father, I ask for new beginnings for hayden today
I ask that you fill her with the Holy Spirit
and that she come to know what she is searching for
in Jesus name I pray

[Christnundrconstruxn]

Hi Hayden and welcome!!
You are in one of the best places in my opinion to see and feel God's love
I agree with all our sister here has spoken to you and yes please look into the studies here

I almost did not share but I felt I should, but PLEASE do not misunderstand this

This to me is so scary because it ties into every part of my life, especially a big one for me is death. Death petrifies me because i feel like God isn't there for me so when i die, what will become of my brain were will it go, i will just stop what becomes of me, i am so terrified and that is the main reason i wish to connect with God, is for an after life, because at this moment i do not know what will happen to me.

Sis PLEASE feel this as it was ment,
It is not about what He can or will do for us......that has already been done, it is about what WE can and need to do for Him and by doing this we will be blessed eternally

I too understand your feeling of emptiness or He is not there BUT I will always refuse to let satan get a hold of that
I just keep reminding myself God loves me! and He will NOT forsake me! I will face trials and tribulations BUT I do not face them alone for He is ALWAYS with me (even when I don't feel Him)
Yes some feel it stronger than others but His love is just as strong for you as it is for anyone else.
Ask Him to show you what it is He wants of you ask to be His tool and allow you the blessings of doing His will.

So i am asking, how do you, real christians truly believe

By the grace of God we are blessed with the faith to do so

I pray some of the others here with the knowledge He blessed them with will speak up and give you the answers you seek
better than I

God bless you and please don't give up
Cuc

[Ruthk34]

Welcome to the site you have come to the right place.

I would find a quiet place where you won't be disturbed. Perhaps play some good christian music, relax your mind clear it of all thoughts. When you have done that Pray to Jesus ask Him to open your heart and keep the evil spirits away to let you feel him. don't try to force it just sit quietly and wait. Sometimes all you will feel is a feeling of peace and calm and that is Him giving you peace. Sometimes it's a tingle in your hand or a chill up your back. It can be different for each of us. As you get to know Him better you will recognise His presence.

Try one of the studies about getting to know God It will be a Great Blessing for you.

I have been a Christian my whole life too and I have gotten to know God so much more since I started the studies here. I don't think I've ever been as close to Him as I am now thanks to the studies.

Praying for you