Hi Hayden and welcome!!
You are in one of the best places in my opinion to see and feel God's love
I agree with all our sister here has spoken to you and yes please look into the studies here
I almost did not share but I felt I should, but PLEASE do not misunderstand this
This to me is so scary because it ties into every part of my life, especially a big one for me is death. Death petrifies me because i feel like God isn't there for me so when i die, what will become of my brain were will it go, i will just stop what becomes of me, i am so terrified and that is the main reason i wish to connect with God, is for an after life, because at this moment i do not know what will happen to me.
Sis PLEASE feel this as it was ment,
It is not about what He can or will do for us......that has already been done, it is about what WE can and need to do for Him and by doing this we will be blessed eternally
I too understand your feeling of emptiness or He is not there BUT I will always refuse to let satan get a hold of that
I just keep reminding myself God loves me! and He will NOT forsake me! I will face trials and tribulations BUT I do not face them alone for He is ALWAYS with me (even when I don't feel Him)
Yes some feel it stronger than others but His love is just as strong for you as it is for anyone else.
Ask Him to show you what it is He wants of you ask to be His tool and allow you the blessings of doing His will.
So i am asking, how do you, real christians truly believe
By the grace of God we are blessed with the faith to do so
I pray some of the others here with the knowledge He blessed them with will speak up and give you the answers you seek
better than I
God bless you and please don't give up