The end

[Rabinantha]

I went to church this morning and I heard from God. Quite clear and direct too. He is closing this door for me so He can open another. Its hard to think that God would want our marriage to be done, but I know He has me covered. I still don't want this, but I see through the darkness and the light is waiting for me on the other side.

My husband has plans. He is house hunting with his girlfriend. His married girlfriend. He thinks he's in love with her. He says if he doesn't give their love a chance he's denying them both something good. He wants her daughter (age 5) and our daughter (about to turn 3) to have bunk beds and be sisters. He's been talking to her for three weeks.

I still love him and I'm still not mad. We have been peaceable throughout all of this. It's just hard to think that 6 days ago divorce was the farthest thing from my mind. Now it plagues me mercilessly. But God is stronger and His voice is loudest in my head. I've been praising and worshipping non stop.

Please pray for finances and housing. The place I live isn't the biggest town and housing is hard especially with animals. Pray for open doors for me. Pray for continued peace in my household. Pray that my husband doesn't loose sight of God in all of this. Thank you all