Resoration

[Rabinantha]

So it's been almost 3 weeks since my husband asked for a divorce. Things have not been easy, but God has been here with us every step of the way. I started out praying for restoration of our marriage, and that He change my husbands heart. My husband made it clear that he was not going to change his mind. So then I started praying that God's will be done in my situation. And I found hope and peace through Christ. Hope that no matter what happened in my marriage, my faith would be forever stronger, and that God would be there, taking care of me the whole way. God got a hold of me in a way I have never experienced before. I became empowered by His Spirit and I had faith to move mountains. I still prayed for His will to be done in my life. I surrounded myself with my brothers and sisters in Christ. I worshiped. I prayed. I stayed strong and diligent. On Wednesday at church a friend prophesied over me. He said that God is softening my husbands heart. I needed to be patient and wait on God. He said that my husband was going to start coming to church with me. On Thursday my husband and I talked about the divorce again. I asked if he was 100% certain that this is what he wanted. I told him to take a couple days to pray and think things through. On Friday he told me he wanted to go to church with me. It honestly surprised me. On Saturday we discussed the divorce again. He said he is 100% sure that he does not want to work on our marriage. I didn't push the subject. I continued to pray for God's will. Sunday he went to church with me. *side note* our church went through some major changes last fall. The new head pastor that came in started preaching things that were not biblical and our small congregation split in 2. Among those that left are the husband and wife couple that just became ordained last summer. They are now leading "church" for those of us that also left in their home. Yesterday, the man that spoke was a man that my husband looks up to and respects very much. He did not know the situation going on in my house. His sermon was about walking in God's will. Worshiping God alone. He said things like "you can fool people, but you can't fool God." He talked about some sins.. he elaborated on adultery, and divorce.. lying.. pride.. he talked about marriage, and how spouses are supposed to love like Christ loves the church.. all the things my husband needed to hear. After church things were back to the same as before. Last night we exchanged some words.. we didn't fight, but I was hurting and I started crying. I didn't want to get angry and I could feel the feelings coming up, so I walked away. He followed me. I told him that unless he was planning on saying "I want to make this work" that I wanted to be left alone. He didn't say anything so I shut the door. I prayed for God's will. I heard him on the phone. My flesh wanted to fight.. I wanted him to know how bad he had hurt me, how betrayed I felt, how disgusted I was with his behavior.. God said "be still". I waited. When he got off the phone he came in and asked if we could talk. I agreed. And then he said the words that I thought would never come out of his mouth. "I need to ask for your forgiveness.. I want to make our marriage work.." I am in awe of God. His work, His will, His timing.. it's all perfect. I know the road ahead is not going to be easy. God never promised us easy. Jesus said we will have tribulations. But He did promise us that He will never leave our side. Jesus said the road is narrow and few will take it. Well, we are taking it, no matter how hard it is. My prayer now is that we can use this experience to help others find God's strength in weakness. For it is in our weakness that His strength thrives.

Thank you Lord! I praise Your Holy Name!! All the glory goes to Him and Him alone. Thank you all for your prayers and support during this hard time. You've all been a blessing to me!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Not some things.. ALL THINGS!

[dema]

Praise the Lord. I am so happy for you.

[MamaKitty87]

WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!! May God use you and your spouse's testimony for His glory! That is awesome...