Ncarriera1110 Day 1

[ncarriera1110]

Well, This is my first time journaling on here. Step one said write your thought of that day and the origin of what's bothering me, so here it goes. I am going through a hard time in life for the millionth time, and My daughter, who I been kidda astranged from asked me to come stay with her. She went to live with her dad at 6 or 7 and is now 19. I seen her some during that time, but not a lot. I We really don't know each other that well, so I thought this would be a good thing. Since, I been her she hardly talks to me or takes interest in spending any time with me. I talked to her about it before, and It was ok a few days and now back the same. She had more to say in a txt and facebook. She told me then how she loved me often and how she wished I hadn't moved so far away for a while to Oregon from Texas. She said I should move back. So, I did and I am right here and she acts totally different. I feel like she doesn't want me here. I am just ready to get up and leave. Her bf and his dad live here too and when I walk in the room hardly anyone talks to me. I feel like an outsider and real uncomfortable. We even watch tv in separate living rooms, and I feel like its them and then me. I do appreciate she asked me to stay and is helping me in that way, but don't want to feel like she doesn't want me her. Maybe, I deserve this or its me. I feel I am being ungrateful also being upset. She shouldn't of had to help me to begin with. I feel guilt and shame about that. I couldn't take care of myself at the moment.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Ncarriera1110

God bless you this day, and welcome to Christianity Oasis.

You have shared some facts about yourself and your present living situation, and you have shared a lot of "feelings" you have experienced recently. Knowing The Lord the way I do, I'm sure He has revealed some things to you since your posting. I hope you will apply those things to your life.

The 14 Day CCCC Study will help you grow in your relationship with The Lord. Relationships get tested all the time due to our old nature, and sometimes it's a real challenge to keep our emotions in check -- having us want to run the other way. Choose instead, to run to The Lord.

Prayers are rising to The Lord in the name of Jesus on your behalf. God's will be done.

God bless and keep you.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack

[dema]

Many times when we feel that we aren't liked or wanted, we kinda hide. It often turns things around to say nice things often. Compliment her job or her husband's job and try to just say nice things whenever you can. Look at them and SEE them. Try to do dishes and help in other ways. Try very hard not to correct how she does things and try not to make little comments of surprise about how she does things. She wants you to love her and show your love. But at the same time - well, she has her own space and it all feels odd. So, in any way that you can do things to make anybody in the house feel nicer - do.

I hope things turn around for you soon. And don't forget to pray.