journal day one

[samantha1]

Well the thoughts that are going through my head right now is how much I just want to disappear and when I talk to my sister in law she just makes me feel like I'm nothing. And having an already feeling of uselessness then that wow. I have my good days and my bad days and so you can say today is a good day.
I've been waiting until it was the right time for me to be committed to finishing the journal entries because my fiancée doesn't let me do anything and it's to where I am almost afraid of leaving my apartment that we share together.
the events will all unfold in my journal entries. I just keep my faith and just don't have the heart to give up.

[dema]

That doesn't sound like a good relationship with your fiancee. I'm glad you are starting the study. I'm glad you are looking to God for answers.