Day 10

[Rabinantha]

I haven't posted for a few days but I'm still doing the steps of the path. I've made some major positive changes in my life, with God's help of course. I made my chart of things to do daily and I've been staying consistent and following through. I have hope and confidence that this will be the change in my life that I need. I've know for the past year or so that it has been God's presence that I lacked in my life. The feelings of longing for something and not knowing what it is, that want of happiness but not being able to obtain it. It is God. Without Him, my life is pointless and worthless. But even after knowing that, I was still struggling with making time in my life for him. It's like I had the cure but I had to actually do something to obtain it, and the disease wasn't THAT bad right? I see things clearly now. The disease of not doing anything to fight off the enemys lies is THAT BAD. Believing his lies, and letting him "comfort" me all the while God sat there and watched, and waited for me to realize that the enemy is the BAD GUY. He wants nothing but to steal from me, kill me, and ultimately destroy the future that God wants for me. Listening to his lies is not ok! Letting him convince us that we have a right to be angry at so-and-so. That we have a right to feel upset, that we have a reason to be afraid, THESE ARE LIES! We are to love, and forgive, with no conditions. We are not made to live in fear. We are to live in peace, love, joy, patience, forgiveness... just as the Father does.

[dema]

There is balance though. You are not required to push down and ignore anything that happens to you. Sometimes balance is hard. But if you have been hurt, the hurt needs to be acknowledged and mourned and perhaps anger is appropriate as well. Jesus got very angry. He also cried. There is a great deal of difference between dealing with a problem and then moving forward and living in the problem. There is also a lot of difference between stuffing it down and dealing with it. Stuffing it down is very unhealthy.

The hard part of the Christian walk is that it is moderate. We are to be humble, but also to know who we are in Christ. We are to turn the other cheek, but be wise and cunning.

There is a time to laugh and a time to weep.