My life is too painful

[Kikiboom2000]

Today like every day of my life has been painful. So full of fear in every situation. I feel afraid of everyone and everything. I was thinking of how am i going to confront someone who i need to confront for my peace of mind. I am so timid and coward and shy..i hate existing. I never enjoy life because endless negative. Painful thoughts nag at me. I don't love myself.i am afraid to stand up for myself. Afraid to ask for what i want. I am afraid tomake eye contact with people. Afraid of what people think of me. I havr very few friends. I am afraid of people not liking me or people looking at me or people talking about me. Afraid of living. I am afraid of life.its challenges. Its trials and hard times. I am afraid of intrracting with people. I am afraid of failure.mistakes.success.criticism.conflict. i have never enjoyed my life. I feel like i sm wearing a mssk rveryday. I am always thinking people are looking at me or people don't like me. I am afraid to drive. Afraid of getting inyo accidents. Afraid of driving in the night or in the rain or on a rainy night and driving alone. These fears go on too numerous to mention. Besides all this fear i am anxious.depressed. angry.bitter.envious.jealous.selfish.mean.fake.unforgiving. hateful.no wonder i am all alone.i am nit loved.i have a bad attitude. I can't blame people.

[notforgotten]

Have you thought of seeing a doctor? I have temporary anxiety. I take Xanax. It works wonders.

[mlg]

Hello kikiboom2000,

Welcome to Christianity Oasis. After reading your post I feel like you could use a friend. Someone to be there to help you through the struggles, to help you conquer the pain, to help you forgive whoever has hurt you, and to help you to heal. I want you to know that there is a friend like no other, that will be there just for you. His name is Jesus. He can help you through all that you are feeling. He wants you to allow Him to do so. All you have to do is call out to Him. He will be there for you.

I would encourage you to do all of the steps of the counseling program. There is healing in those steps. Have you been able to do step 2 today.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Take care

[notforgotten]

And then there is us as well. We are your friends. You can unload your burdens on us anytime. Love and peace always. Scott.

[Dora]

Oh Kikiboom you just described the story of MY life! I've felt that way too. Thankfully I'm feeling some better. At least life isn't as painful most of the time. I share this because if I can find freedom you can too.

I started my healing path with the counseling mlg is speaking of. It is a good program and will help you come closer to God.

There's one thing that stands out above all the healing I received it's that God is closer to your heart than you could ever imagine. Closer than anything or anyone could ever be. He's with in you and around you. He's in your future and your past and your every day. Kiki God loves you so much He is choosing to be that close to you. And it's a good thing. Because He will never hurt you. He will bring healing but it often comes slowly so not to break us. Its my prayer you trust in this.

God loves you. Be blessed.