Hello Manofprayer777 (Craig),
God bless you this day.
You said:
The apostle Paul says hate what is evil stand on the side of good. If you do evil behavior most of the time your evil.
Romans 12:9 Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good.Note: without dissimulation means to love sincerely, genuinely -- we shouldn't be two-faced. I suppose if we don't feel the love...then we need to seek love and perform the things that represent love. God is love, and The Holy Spirit indwells us and one of the gifts of the Spirit is love, so we have access to God's love.
Yes, we should avoid evil. And if we find we can't resist behaving uncomely towards someone who is not yet enlightened and be a positive influence on them, we should separate ourselves from them and continue to seek God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit until we feel better able to represent our Saviour Christ Jesus.
You said:
I case you haven't guessed most of the time my walk with God is not sweet but angry and frustrating.
I've sensed that about you, Craig, and I have compassion for you. I can relate. I first accepted Christ Jesus as my personal Saviour when I was in my 30s. For the next 22 years, I saw subtle changes in my life, but not very many people would have identified me as a Born Again Christian, if asked. I functioned, but I was very depressed, fearful and as a result...very, very angry. I had begun relying on anger to help me fight fear. And as a result, I was miserable. I prayed and prayed for things to change, but a year turned to 5, then 10, then 22. Then one night I came across this site, and started reading the blessed studies on this site. Within a few months, I learned that I could actually have a relationship with The Holy Spirit and access the power of God and His blessed fruit.
Galatians 5:22-23
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.I also prayed for a passion for reading The Word of God...The Bible, and He answered my prayers. Fourteen years and 4 months later I can honestly state that I've not been depressed since. Yes, I still have lots of challenges in this life, but I now choose to take it to Him in prayer, rather than allow fear to have it's way in me because I forfeited peace. Just like the hymn "What A Friend We Have In Jesus" says
What a friend we have in Jesus
All our sins and griefs to bear
And what a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer
Oh, what peace we often forfeit
Oh, what needless pain we bear
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer
Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged
Take it to the Lord in prayer
Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness
Take it to the Lord in prayer
You said:
My soul wish when I close my eyes in death is thath I will have a heart of love and forgiveness for everyone thath has wronged me in life. I want to be like my master jesus there is s hym thath says when jesus came from heaven he emptied him self of everything but love. I want to be like thath.
Your wish is beautiful, Craig, and God Himself placed that desire within you. He loves you. I just want to encourage you that you do not need to continue to forfeit God's peace until you get to Heaven. The Holy Spirit indwells you and He has love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, goodness, faith, gentleness and self-control in abundance to provide you.
Here is a link to 3 studies from this site about The Holy Spirit that had such a profound impact on my life.
http://www.christianityoasis.com/Keyword/HolySpirit.htmhttp://www.christianityoasis.com/Temple ... efault.htmhttp://www.christianityoasis.com/Spirit ... tepOne.htmThe first 2 are fairly short in length. The third one "Spirit of Truth" can be read in 7 installments.
Prayers continue to rise to The Lord in the name of Jesus on your behalf, Craig. God The Father's will be done.
God bless and keep you,
Mack