daily journal blog day 3

[storm]

i didnt sleep lastnight i sat out in the garden most of the night just trying to hold it together....was frozen.... but i couldnt face being indoors ....
i made my self notes during the day about good things .....reminding myself that Jesus loves me....
having the music on has made a big difference.... i didnt think it would .... but somehow it keeps me calm.....weird
i didnt do much during the day i felt drained and tired ..... i did manage to snatch some sleep .
step 3 on the course .... this was meant to be an easy one ....trust me to struggle with Gods grace .....I know hes there and i want with all my heart to believe he loves me but i keep putting up barriers...... i just hope he doesnt give up on me ....
i have some wonderful online friends and i feel like i belong in the chat here.....thankyou God for landing me in this place .....your all friendly and dont mind me just being me

[foreverHis]

God has you in the palm of His hand Storm..your name is always before Him..he knows your pain...and He also knows what you need too my friend,nothing will ever seperate you from His love,even if you dont feel like he is moving in your life,He is,God is always doing something for us,its never ending what he can and will do as you surrender you life to Him. Yes you do belong here,you are not here by accident Storm, we are all your friends here and always here to listen and pray,so thankyou for sharing your heart with us...GOd loves you and so do we..

[kimberly]

What a glorious testimony you will have! Kim