Grey Rock

[Grey Rock]

I have lost all hope and I just don't care what happens anymore. May this 14 day journey help my thought process, my actions, inactions,and this doomed marriage. God's will be done.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Grey Rock,

Welcome to Christianity Oasis.

Glad to hear you are exploring the 14-Day Study. It has helped hundreds of other souls, myself included, to find hope in their time of need. I'll include you in my prayers to The Lord, in the name of Jesus. God The Father's blessed will be done.

God bless and keep you,
Mack

[Grey Rock]

Thank you Mack. Any and all prayers are appreciated.

[Grey Rock]

Day 2
Stepping Stone 2
Renewing my mind...
Less of me, more of Him.
Don't start each day with the same thing. Dig a new trench to get out of the old mind set...

[Grey Rock]

God's Grace
I sometimes feel like the grace I extend to others, is what has caused this whole marital discord that is going on. I should have sat down boundaries, and stuck to them a long time ago. My mindset at that time was continue to forgive continue to forgive continue to forgive. And the only place that got me was, what I call the merry-go-round, the roller coaster, and groundhog's Day.
I feel I've done everything according to God's word concerning Grace and extending Grace. And about 500 other things according to God's word as well.
God tells me don't be weary in doing well....

[Grey Rock]

Forgiveness forgiveness forgiveness 70 * 7. Oh yeah boy... It's exhausting totally exhausting. So I guess I just need to forgive myself for being so stupid. So stupid, because I've seen the signs over and over and over again. Why oh why have I stayed so long Lord? Why? You gave me the perfect escape last year at this time and I didn't take it..
. Because I still had hope. Hope in something I didn't see... Hope that he could change.. I was so stupid I knew I should not have came back. I knew when he left I should have let him come back at that time. Even my pastor said that he needed to hit rock bottom.. forgive me Lord forgive me

[Grey Rock]

I'm not sure if this should be part of the 14 stepping stone path, but I just got done reading the study on selfishness.. quite an eye opener. Why is it some marriages seem to thrive and other marriages, end up on the wrong rocks??

[Christianity Oasis]

I prefer to allow you to continue to walk the entire path prior to addressing that question. You may find the answer on your own and it may surprise you. Continue on as you are because from what you have been sharing, you are right on track.


A potential friend

[Grey Rock]

I had surgery yesterday so I would be missing a few days due to recovery.
I will stay on track once I get back. I just looked very interesting and I also thought that maybe just maybe I had a problem with selfishness that's why I read that one article and selfishness.
Turn off the programs that will be reading I will ask myself questions. Doing it makes me ponder

[Mackenaw]

Hello Grey Rock

God bless you this day.

Prayers are rising to The Lord, in the name of Jesus, on your behalf. May your recovery be swift and your comfort immense. God The Father's will be done.

Your journey with the 14-day Study will continue to have you meditating and pondering, and talking with God, because it leans so heavily on the blessed Word of God. He loves you, and your communication with Him is ever-increasing. Praise be to God! Thank You Jesus!

By the way -- those little side trips (like the one you took to read the study on selfishness) are awesome, too.

Prayers continue.

God bless you, Grey Rock,
Mack

[Grey Rock]

Thank you Mackinaw.

[Grey Rock]

Renewing my mind
As a Christian this is something that I tried to do each day each hour and each minute. It is difficult, that I will admit. Living in a toxic household with the toxic atmosphere is the reason why I do my best to renew my mind on any given day. Renewing my mind daily reading a chapter reading in Psalms also reading in Proverbs is what keeps me going. God's word is true. God's plan for me is true. And it is all the goodness that God gives me that I try really hard to remain focused on. I don't know how I'm going to be able to accomplish the task of keeping track of paper what is asked of me and this stepping stone.
My pants are watched. My actions are watched.
I just got I will just have to continue the way I am continuing. I keep thinking everything I do inside my head inside my head with no man can trust me