Is it love or is it shallow?

[TMB]

I'm going to try and explain this well (I don't think it will be too hard). I certainly don't want to go to Hell, who does? But I feel like the only reason I worship God is so I can go to Heaven instead of because I want to fall in love with Him. I don't really understand what it feels like to love God. I also think I have a lack of faith and I don't know how to change that.

I need ! I really do.

[dema]

I think you need to discover Jesus as your own true love. I am rather the opposite - and opposites actually are kinda alike. Can understand each other better I think. Black and White have more in common than a number and a tooth for example.

I was rebellious in my youth - well, maybe not by the world's standards, but by my own. And I told God that I couldn't come to him in fear,that it had to be in love. And I would talk to him at all sorts of odd times. Never had trouble talking to him in the shower for example. Didn't have to be dressed and looking pious. .

Have you done cccc? It is a good place to start.http://www.christianityoasis.com/CCCC/Forum.htm

And pray that God will allow you to experience intimacy. And will show you what is blocking it now.

It could be that you experienced God as a judgemental disciplinarian in your youth. And that that image just won't go away.

But he is a loving father. An abba - daddy.

He sent his son to rescue you.

So that he could adopt you.

God loves you. And he sees inside of you. And he still loves you.

Try the study - and keep posting. God bless.