crocodile tears

[deetu]

Wasn't sure where to put this. Here seemed fitting.

Yesterday, my husband was splitting wood. Since it was nice out and we were expecting snow I thought it would be good if we stacked the wood in the shed. So I suggested he take the plow off the ATV and we hook up the trailer to move it.
As I'm driving it up the hill, he says to stay slow and steady then yells something else (guess it would have been better if I didn't have my IPod in my ears) and I don't make it up the hill because of the snow and ice. He wants to try to push it up but I won't let him which leaves him yelling that it was a mess, waste of time, waste of money for stupid machine, etc.
As I'm going to get the keys to my truck, I'm upset and getting teary eyed. I'm huffing and puffing and trying to pull out some tears when God says "Who are the tears for? You or Him?"
Well, I wasn't hurt so I said "Sorry Lord" and changed my attitude toward my husband, keeping calm and standing back to let him make the decisions. Truck pulled it up the hill, we stacked the wood and as he was giving me directions on how I should do it next time, he asked if I wanted him to do it. Really, I don't know why he didn't do it in the first place other then it's my machine and I use it more. So he drives up the hill (part of me wanted him to fail but I really wanted to get this done so I was happy)
Next load stuck again with more "wasted time, waste money"
Next load I say I will do it but to not fill the trailer as much. Four more loads with me taking and stacking as he finished splitting.

Thing is, my husband is starting to change. In the past he wouldn't have considered taking the blade off and using the ATV. He usually does it in the wheelbarrow...up hill...350 feet away. He wouldn't have continued trying after the first stuck. He would have yelled and complained alot longer then he did. He would have held the grudge against the ATV for a lot longer instead of letting it go almost immediately.

Moral of this story.
If I hadn't listened and forced out those tears, it would have ended different. I had already asked God to help with the situation then tried to make my husband feel bad.

I keep praying for him and it is working.
Thank you for listening

[Mackenaw]

Hello Deetu

Oh how I can relate to your story. I actually got a cramp in my throat while reading your post.

Thank you for sharing, Deetu. God is so Good, isn't He?!!!

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack