New Christian with Bipolar!

[Ayelet]

I have bipolar disorder, and I have recently become a Christian. I know, what do those things have to do with each other?!

Well, I've been very depressed lately, and while I never expected that becoming a Christian would take away my bipolar (although I know God could if He chose), I guess I'm just confused about the concept of depressed Christians! You know what I mean?

I have more peace and hope than before I was a Christian. I never think of suicide or anything. I know that God is with me through all my sadness. But I almost feel guilty for feeling depressed, but I can't seem to have any control over it. I give thanks all the time for all He has done for me.

I have come to the realization that I NEVER feel well. Ever. I have no clue what "normal people" feel like. I have no idea what normal would feel like. Even when I am not in a severe depression, I always have at least a tinge of depression, and usually more than that. I have a jittery feeling in my gut. A deep depression that is inside me that I can't get rid of, even if outwardly I am laughing or energetic.

The only times I have ever NOT had any depression inside me was when I've been manic. But that was short-lived and a false kind of happiness.

I am feeling in despair. I just go around and feel like crying to everyone I meet "Help me!" "Somebody help me!" I don't actually say that to anyone but my parents and God! But my parents can't help me, and I don't know what God wants me to do. Somebody help me!

[Christnundrconstruxn]

Hello my new sis!!
first I want to welcome you to the most awesome website on the net!
next I am sorry but I do not have the answers for you BUT I wanted you to know stay here and NO MATTER WHAT do NOT give in to the depression, you see I have not been diagnosed with it but there is NO doubt I have allowed satan to inplant this sickness into my mind BUT even though I allow it to attack my mind I never allow satan full control because I NEVER give up on God's love and He NEVER gives up on me (although many others do )
You see I allow things in my past as well as things I done and paths I have taken to destroy the good that God has for me,
It is not that God does not want it for me or have any good for me, it is only that I allow satan to fool me into thinking I am not good enough or that I don't deserve to be happy
does any of this sound familiar??
You are where God wants you...here at the Oasis this is a first step, I assume you have you been to a doctor regarding this as by the way you spoke, are they able to help in any ways??
I will say if it was not for my faith the depression would have won over my life here on earth no doubt, so keep leaning on God and ask Him for understanding as well as healing.
May God bless you
Cuc

[realtmg]

I too have Bi-polar.
I have found out to walk by Faith and not by sight.
Keep on fighting!!!

GBU


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