Trying to move on...

[writerforlife]

Hi, I'm new and would love to get feedback and some of your experience. I recently met someone and we actually had a lot in common. I'm a freelance writer and he's a music producer. I live on the West Coast and he lives in the South. So many late night conversations and it had gotten to a point that we decided, we would continue being friends and go slow to see if we should take our relationship further. Well, as many we were attracted physically, but it started becoming to emotional for me and he needing me to understand his hectic schedule. Although we talked about this and it seemed to be working at first, our situation just seemed to still be nerve wrecking for the both of us. So...one night we spoke and I believe that he could tell that I had issues with my past in trusting men. And I begin to see that he had a problem with pride. We had previously agreed that he would produce some music for my new web site and he stated, no matter what happened with our relationship he would still create the music for me. We talked about our issues, he told me it was to difficult for him to deal with my trust issues and asked if I thought it would be good if we just continued being friends until I worked out these emotions. Well to be honest, I broke down emotionally and told him, I needed to hang up. He took me leaving the conversation as me stating, I agreed that we shouldn't go any further than having a friendship. He called me a few days later, asking if I were ok and if I was sure I made the right decision. It was an odd conversation that ended with his phone disconnecting because of a tornado in his area. I know that he felt I no longer was opening up, and this also made him back away. I made the mistake of turning my cell phone off that night and we never talked. I texted him the next day and apologized for my inconsistencies and also told him, I decided to wait on the music for my web site. Well...to say the least this infuriated him and he will no longer take my phone calls. I emailed him and told him I wouldn't bother him, and that I really do care about him, he never answered. I really miss him, but have been praying and I know that God doesn't want me to contact him. I do believe if a Man wants you, he will try and talk a problem through. Since I did contact him last, I do have to wait for him to make a move. This is difficult, it's tearing me a part, because I know that even though we both should have communicated better, I really should have talked when he needed me to. Also there is that chance that he will never call. I miss him, and believe I love him. I need some way to get through this without so much angst and crying...

[popples]

Hon wow what a place to be....First of all let me tell you from experience we can do nothing without God. Moving on is very hard but pray and ask God. Another thing from experience we can ask God anything and be direct. Lord should I keep this man in my heart?? should I face him?? or are you telling me to move on??
When we think God isnt answering us its not God hon, its us not wanting to hear the answer.

Always remember God never leaves us alone he carries us through the harder times.

Pray and keep praying....God Bless you my sister

[writerforlife]

Thank you and I will continue to pray...