Hope

[Hope]

Today has been a very emotional day. So many emotions and so much turmoil.... I was losing hope. hope for a better future. Life has been very hard past several months, some parts my fault with poor decisions, some parts beyond my control. I have a deep love for animals and foster for a rescue. Well I am in danger of losing my home after having gotten laid off. the only job I could find was making 10k less a year which is a HUGE impact on well, everything. I sat here today with tears in my eyes looking at my fur kids and thinking I was going to have to let go and try to find homes for my two personal dogs, knowing the rescue would take the two fosters I have. My heart is breaking. I keep applying for jobs and keep getting denial emails or no response at all even though I am well qualified for the jobs I have applied for. Today I was at the lowest I have been in a really long time. I had thought to put one of my personal dogs up for adoption to try to help her find a fur ever home where she would be loved and cared for the rest of her life here on earth. In talking with a few people I got awesome news in that one of the fosters I recently cared for went for a trial visit with a vet and it looks like they are going to adopt that precious fur kid. One of my fosters is deaf and no one seems to want him. I worry about him but the one I worry most about is my senior dog who is 11yrs old most people don't want older dogs. I talked with a few people and thank God I was given hope again. I don't know what the future holds and I don't know if I will be able to keep my house or my furkids but loss of hope is a horrible feeling I wouldn't want to wish on my worst enemy. What did I learn from this????? well besides already knowing God is in control and knowing that what I want may not be what He has in store for me.... I learned that God sent people to help restore my hope as without hope I saw no future. it was bleak and full of sadness and my heart was shattered. Lesson is when hurting, when you think all is lost.... don't give up..... reach out..... GBU all

[JulieAnn]

Hi Hope, Yes, God is in control. It can be tough coming to grips with His will verses our will, but if we yield to Him in all circumstances, knowing that we can trust every outcome to Him, His peace will keep us. One of the major lessons He his been teaching me in the last year is 'relinquishing' my preconcieved thoughts of what I assumed was His will or way for my life, or my family's life. So many of my disappointments or frustrations were coming from my own determinations of how I thought things should be. It has been very freeing to 'let go' and simply follow Him and yeild, trusting more and more. Trust your life to Him. His ways are always better, and yields more fruit in us, all for His glory. We are being conformed to His image. Xoxo

[mlg]

Hang in there Hope....God hasn't given up and it's good to see you haven't either. Prayers for you.

Take care

[Hope]

thanks. guess when it rains it pours... i just got laid off AGAIN. thats three times since june of 2010. I just keep trying dunno what the future holds but i sure do hope i dont lose my fur kids. anyways it just happened today so im not real good right now applying for all sorts of stuff just to try to get a job. Maybe i need to spend more time with God and I am sure he has been showing me the answer for awhile but i just havent paid attention so maybe that is what i need to do now

GBU All