suffering

[james2011]

I don't know if anybody can help but ive been suffering and don't know what to do. All my life I've had social problems fitting in and talking to people. And the worst things have been happening to me in the past few years. It started when I got out of high school I went into a deep depression put all my friends away and felt like I had a unbarable uncontroable fear inside and sometimes anger and suicideal thoughts I suffered and suffered took depression medicine nothing helped I looked horrible I prayed for jesus to save me during this time and became a christian which I've known about him all my life because I went to a christian school and went to church. I still got worse so prayed send me help. I got a random txt from a girl I never knew but she started txtin me and spending time together . The feelings went away and we both fell in love. And were together two yearshappily until i I became controling, angry, and wreckless.We ended up hurting each othes heart and she left me. I tried to cope I went threw a wreckless face doing all kinds of stuff to hide the pain.(going to movies, to ocean , walkin got tired) then I went threw a face where all id do is read the bible and thrww out all mu country music and just listened to gospel and that's all I do is sing them because its the only keeping me together. But now its not ivw got this uncotroab
e anger one day happy the next raceing thoughts and anxiety. I don't know what to do I don't think this is normal behavior. My sister was bipolar and my father I believe to but he used alcohol to help it which only made it worse. Is it possible I'm bipolar and this is the reason all this is happening please don't judge me I need advise

[Tomsmom]

I think you ought to go to the doctor and explain your situation. If you are bipolar, there are medicines to help stabalize you. You can have a normal life. Since, bipolar can run in families, I hope you will get checked out by the doctor. You deserve to be everything God wants you to be.

[clark thompson]

It is possible you are bipolar. With Jesus we can overcome all things this is not to say you should not seek a doctor.

[redbandit]

I'm praying for you! I know how hard it can be. I have a lot of the same problems. I am bipolar. That doesn't mean you are, but I agree it would be a good idea to see a doctor