I don't have the answer BUT I will let you know that I know exactly what you are going through with this
It will not leave you alone and you cannot resist it and even if your able to it creeps back up on you
you are NOT alone...we
are NOT alone, there is a reason it's called addiction some do not believe it is possible and for those I wish God could show them just for a day what ANY addiction is like, it is SO easy to sit and judge but it is just as easy for them to be as we are here and not judge but support each other.
I don't know if you know any of my back ground but one of my biggest problems is I am alone and starve for that human touch and affection, I am one that HAS to have someone there in my life and when I don't I can be in a room full of friends and family and yet be the most lonely person on the earth.
You said something about one of us being in the room.....most times we are, I myself am on and off this site throughout the day as I know many of our other brothers and sisters are as well, and I am only a pm away, I will listen, pray or talk as you need anytime I see your need, as for this urge I think we need to stop that minute we feel the urge and ask God to remove it and pray hard on it, and please know I am NOT making light of this I know firsthand exactly what you are feeling and going through....it's not that easy, some people can just lay down thier addictions others struggle and it is said "well you just didn't want it bad enough" I don't believe that I wanted to quit the drugs and cigarettes SO many times before but it took many times of trying before it happened BUT I gave it to God and He removed it and I know if I keep praying He will soon remove this last addiction along with my "bar room mouth" that I got so use to for 35 years or so (since I was a teen)
These things do not make me any less of God's child nor do they make God love me any less than the next person and this is something I want you to remember GOD STILL LOVES YOU!!!! He is hurting not because you were doing it but more because satan has gottten his filthy claws into you, God wants NOTHING more than to pull you from satans claws
You know I heard something today: If we would just do the Lord's work, then He will take care of our needs.
Just remember Amie I am just a pm away anytime