pornographic material. . .

[follower of Christ]

I do believe that this is probably the hardest thing that i have had to do except finish school (lol).

It started about four years ago when i went to boarding school. This was something new to me and a wasn't prepared for the consequences or the hold that it would have over me for the following three years.

It has cost me the relationship I had with God, the mental awareness I had for things that are either right or wrong, and it has sucked me into this thought that I was/ am not worthy as a man towards a woman. . .and also I feel that i have betrayed my heavenly Father who has given me a new chance time and again until i manage to throw away the chance once more. I hate feeling so far from God and I want to start having a personal relationship with Him but i don't know where to start. I am really embarrassed about this part of my life and i wish I never started with it in the first place. I really don't know if it can be called an addiction, but I find it pretty hard to stop.

I have stopped though . . .a couple of times actually, but it always seems to find its way back to me and i don't know how to "fill the hole" once I have removed it. This has had a hold over me for so long and I wish (again) to stop and move on to another chapter in my life which I can pursue and so that I have one less thing in my life that comes between me and my Lord.

Please give advice, similar stories, tips or anything that can help me with overcoming this obstacle. †

[realtmg]

Hi
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[Sam_19]

Dude i had the same exact problem. I knew God but i was naieve. I started and found it pretty much impossible to stop. It made me treat women more as objects then anything else, pushed me away from God and seemed like the only thing that would make me happy each day.
Then my older brother who was doing the same sins as me and more found Christ, so i thought wow, if he can do it so can i. I'm telling you bro, that desire, that gap in your soul you think you need to fill with this desire, it gets filled with Jesus and it never goes. I actually feel sick when i see sexual stuff on tv or online now because of the power of the Holy Spirit.
It is never about you trying your hardest, because you will always fail. Its about putting all your faith, your whole life, and giving it to Jesus. He has the power bro, He'll do anything and everything, and it'll be exactly what you always needed.
For you to stay on this Heavenly path, you need to surround yourself with Holiness. Listen to Christian music, go to church, fellowship with your fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, watch Christian movies, etc. Don't let go of people who aren't on the same page as you, but just remove yourself from the areas where you can fall back down into that trap.

[realtmg]

Amen
And............

GBU Bro.

Real......