Have been out of a job for 18 months now
Posted: Mon May 26, 2014 3:07 pmThe last 18months of my life have been the most trying i have ever experienced. Its hard to describe the pain, sleepless hours of thought, endless job applications, the sorrows, the hurt, the feeling of loss, depression, loneliness, tears and hopelessness. Often times i was denied a job even after passing series of tests, interviews and medicals for silly reasons and in some cases,no reasons. On the last count, i was even told my offer letter was ready,only to be denied employment again for the reason that my last contract was terminated and not willful resignation. My employment was terminated due to mass rationalization which was no fault of mine. But, it now seams no one wants to offer me a job because of that. often times i have summoned hope, kept the faith alive but with each passing day, i struggle to survive. I have prayed and prayed but answers never seem to come. In time i go into a serious warfare i get another rejection letter. Despite prayers from so many people(pastors and family members included), the answer seams to be far fetched.My finances have run dry and each day i live by his grace. I don't know what it would take to turn my situation around. I have prayed with every kind of faith i can muster, every gospel passage i can hold unto but frankly i don't know how much longer i can bear this burden. I only pray God has not left me, because often times i feel he has. I wish i can understand my life right now, i wish i can know his will for me, but i don't. If you can, please pray for me. God bless.
