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what I have felt...

Angry,vengful,scared,Lonely,Insecure,jealous,Hurt, Guilty, Offended.

Looking back,

I haven't been truthfull, I haven't been assertive, I totally collapsed as a man, as a husband, I went for the Lust, instead of the the Trust, But I realied I did love the other gal, My ex was more than willing to give me a chance, and I blew it... Because I knew that she would never change, Then when I realised things... I could not handle all the stress, lost my Job, lost everything I owned, wound up homeless, then Living with this other woman for a bit, Most likely Hurt her family in the process. I created a real mess all around, and I really have a tough time with it... Looking back, I can't believe what I have been thru and I am thankfull to god that I am now working, and have a home again.

I really Lost my way, But Looking back, There was No Genuine Honesty or trust in that relationship, It's seems as if I was getting ripped all the time. and I in turn Fired back. I was not being a very good person. I could of took the high road and tried to resolve issues better.... But honest to god, I didn't know how.... My mind was locked up with fear.... I tried to talk to her about what was going on, but I couldn't get thru to her.... Always that darn texting, she would hide behind it and launch missles at me, thats how i felt. I was once told I was the most selfish man on the planet... I was really injured by that comment.... I really need to let go of all those things that were said to me, and wipe the slate totally clean....

And that is exactly what Jesus can do for you. He will wash your sins away and make you a new creation in Him. The past will no longer hurt you...it will become a witness to where you have been and how God can lift you out of the miry clay.

I again want to say...forgive yourself Ron...you must do this...you have to let go and let God....you can do this.

Ron, I think sometimes we hurt another because we ourselves are hurting. We don't know how to respond in kind, when kindness is not given to us. So don't blame yourself...just know that it's time for a fresh start...with Jesus leading your path all the way.

Take care

Ron,

I have been through some of the same things you have and I am a little bit ahead of you on day seven of this path.I think the thing we have most in common is we seem to wake up all of a sudden and say what in the world happened and how did i get here. It is hard for me to look back through my life too and see the choices I could have made differently. I can't do anything about those things though except to go on in the right directions. God has never broken a promise...ever. And He won't now.
Get into God's word and see for yourself what He promises to the ones He loves. I especially like Ephesians. But listen to the advice of Paul:
"Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3: 13-14

let me know if I can help...