really needing prayer and advice

I want to thank everyone who has been praying for me here on CO. I'm feeling really "weak" and "desperate" right now, if you get what I mean. I don't know what to do, I constantly pray for peace, joy, and strength but I feel like my life is falling apart. I feel like such a burden to everyone. I just can't take much more
I've been hospitalized twice b4 for this, and both times I felt worse afterwords. But I'm not sure if I can keep myself safe when I'm alone. I have a therapy appt Mon, and I'm afraid if I'm completely honest and open with her she will make me go back to the hospital. Any advice & prayers would be really appreciated! Thanks


