Hello Goldieluv
God bless you, sweet Goldieluv.
As I read your post, I was reminded of an old song by Three Dog Night, entitled "One is the Loneliest Number" -- I put the lyrics down below.
One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Two can be as bad as one
It's the loneliest number since the number one
No is the saddest experience you'll ever know
Yes, it's the saddest experience you'll ever know
`Cause one is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
One is the loneliest number, worse than two
It's just no good anymore since she/He went away
Now I spend my time just making rhymes of yesterday
One is the loneliest, number one is the loneliest
Number one is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
One is the loneliest, one is the loneliest
One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
It's just no good anymore since she/He went away
(Number) One is the loneliest
(Number) One is the loneliest
(Number) One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
(Number) One is the loneliest
(Number) One is the loneliest
(Number) One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
The song reminds me somewhat of Ecclesiastes. There is this thing between the earth realm and spirit realm, and sometimes we get confused. God is always with us, but in the sadness, in the trials, sometimes it feels like He's not with us and we begin to sing songs of yesterday (dwell in the emotions of our old life, those old familiar reactions and doubts).
Good News, Goldie -- you know The Saviour. Push through and past those trials in Faith. He's right there with you. When you cry, He's right there with you. He'll not only meet you on the other side, but He's walking right there with you, through it all.
Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
God bless you, Goldie.
Love,
Mack