Thanks to each of you for your words, your prayers and support. I love you!
Thinking about it, I realize God was trying to protect me from what happened. He tried to redirect my attention and warn me but I ignored it. My 'friend' and I were talking via myspace. Twice it kicked me off the im. Twice my 1 yr old nephew woke up crying and came to me. And when we started talking, for some reason I didn't even want to. But I just went ahead anyway and let my thoughts and words wander to a place they should never go. I've struggled with this sort of thing for a while but God is teaching me how to overcome. God is so good! He's given me peace once more.
'For His anger only lasts a moment, but His favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.' --Psalm 30:5
'May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer. --Psalm 19:14