day 3 sorry this is so long
Posted: Thu Apr 01, 2010 4:10 pmI have made it through days 1 and 2 and i am now on day 3. i am already feeling better and closer to God. I am ready to share a little more about my self and my past with you. I am ready to confess my sins and continue to move on and regain my faith and trust in the Lord.
When i was younger I attended a private school until i was in jr high. when i got into high school i got into the sex and the drugs and partying. in which i lost my way. i became pregnant at the age of 17. i sobered up long enough to have my son. after which i went back to my old ways. i was a single unmarried mother. i sought help for my addiction and got myself back on track. i was engaged to my sons father who at the time was in the army. When he came out home i found that he had already married someone else. so i feel back into the revenge trap by sleeping with his best friend. i thouhgt that if i got back at him it was ok. we did eventually did get married and had a nother child, but it ended in divorce. he chested on me i cheated on him and finally when i knew it was over i tried to save my marriage not only for the children but because i knew divorce was wrong in God's eyes.
When i finally accpected that it was over i found another guy who i thought was the one. we got together and be didn't;t follow the no sex before marriage rule and i didn't base our relationship around God. he left after finding out i was pregnant with his son. I moved in with my mother who i have been with since.
I lost my faith and blamed God for the problems i was having instead of looking at myself and putting the blame where it belonged on myself. I have tried it alone and i tried to do things my way only to realize i need help, I need God in my life.
Now i am here to let go of my past and move on in my future. I have been reunite with a wonderful man who i have known for years and we are planning to get married, but before we can do that i need to get right with God. We both believe that we were sent to each other by God for a reason.
When i was younger I attended a private school until i was in jr high. when i got into high school i got into the sex and the drugs and partying. in which i lost my way. i became pregnant at the age of 17. i sobered up long enough to have my son. after which i went back to my old ways. i was a single unmarried mother. i sought help for my addiction and got myself back on track. i was engaged to my sons father who at the time was in the army. When he came out home i found that he had already married someone else. so i feel back into the revenge trap by sleeping with his best friend. i thouhgt that if i got back at him it was ok. we did eventually did get married and had a nother child, but it ended in divorce. he chested on me i cheated on him and finally when i knew it was over i tried to save my marriage not only for the children but because i knew divorce was wrong in God's eyes.
When i finally accpected that it was over i found another guy who i thought was the one. we got together and be didn't;t follow the no sex before marriage rule and i didn't base our relationship around God. he left after finding out i was pregnant with his son. I moved in with my mother who i have been with since.
I lost my faith and blamed God for the problems i was having instead of looking at myself and putting the blame where it belonged on myself. I have tried it alone and i tried to do things my way only to realize i need help, I need God in my life.
Now i am here to let go of my past and move on in my future. I have been reunite with a wonderful man who i have known for years and we are planning to get married, but before we can do that i need to get right with God. We both believe that we were sent to each other by God for a reason.
you are so not alone in that. His love is unconditional, sis. Through everything, He loves you. Release all the guilt and shame you carry to Him. It was nailed to the cross and covered by His blood.
