i can hardly bring myself to write
Posted: Sat Apr 10, 2010 7:47 pmin finding the person i was meant to be, i am rejected by my dearest loved one. my husband has been my closest friend for seven years. i have given him so much of myself, i didn't even know who i was. being with him forced me to redefine my idea of love. my idea is based on scripture, that's foolishness to him. his idea of love is based on opinion. i love him( in his eyes) because i make him feel loved. i have given him so much support, even when i didn't agree with him. no the shoe is on the other foot. without the love of GOD, it is so foolish for me to expect him to support my changes in lifestyle. after all, it means giving up the selfish pleasures and indulgences that the bible condemns. i cannot be a Laodicean Chirstian, compromising in faith and blending with the world standards. i love GOD with all my heart, and HE is telling me to prove my love to HIM with my obedience to HIM.
this is the test of where my allegiance really lies. i want to be with Christ in the last day, so i have to build my support group without him, and allow Jesus to take the burden of rejection from my shoulder.
this is the test of where my allegiance really lies. i want to be with Christ in the last day, so i have to build my support group without him, and allow Jesus to take the burden of rejection from my shoulder.
I know that you feel torn during this time...knowing that your husband is having a hard time with your choice of loving Jesus. See Jesus is now your best friend...where once your husband was...and your husband knows this and feels this...and instead of accepting your choice...your husband doesn't like the changes as He is still caught up in the world...but sis...just know that despite your husband being upset...that you are making the right choice by choosing Jesus. You are doing wonderful sis...and Jesus agrees...you keep pleasing God...and He will bless you.
