day 2
ok this is day two.  Didn't work out too well.  had a big argument with my husband.   Seems like as soon as I try to make positive changes things go wrong.  He is not a very nice christian.  At least not to me.  Here I am hurting and lonely as usual.  I was the one to apologize.  I always do, even if I am not at fault.  I can remember only one apology from him in 20 plus years.  
I must stay focused and not look to him for my joy. But he is my husband, he gives little of anything, definitely not the head of this house. Wish I had somewhere to go. My 14 year old daughter is the reason I will not just pick up and run. Anyway i apologize for complaining on this forum will continue the 14 days. Pray for me. Its hard when everything goes wrong in your life.
			I must stay focused and not look to him for my joy. But he is my husband, he gives little of anything, definitely not the head of this house. Wish I had somewhere to go. My 14 year old daughter is the reason I will not just pick up and run. Anyway i apologize for complaining on this forum will continue the 14 days. Pray for me. Its hard when everything goes wrong in your life.

