I am weary of going around the same mountain.
Reminds me of the Israelites, and of myself.
We must be careful not to ignore the Grace of God in our lives, even if we aren't where we hope to someday be. God's mercies towards us are new every morning, and it is He that gives us strength to see it through to another day. You may be struggling with things that have their root in what happened years ago, but do not for a moment believe that God has not been with you, working in your life all this time, teaching you lessons through experience, the main of which I venture to say based on my own circumstances, is the realization that independent of Him we are unable to progress to anywhere good. Such a precious truth that truly is able to change our lives if we act in accordance with. You may be closer to the Promised Land than you think.
Keep seeking the Lord. God bless you

Happy Easter