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I need to forgive myself.....

I've forgiven others, yet I see that I haven't fully forgiven myself..... I still cry because I ruined my Marraige on occasion,
I still have a decent relationship with the ex.... Yesterday, for no reason I bought Lunch and took it to her, and told her I was glad to do it, It made me happy....

Then, wrote a letter to the former GF, and let her know that I hold nothing against her, that I pray and bless her, hope her life is fruitful, her children are successful.... That If she needs my help I am here....
Something I realise this morning, the only thing holding me back was me......

I had a good chat last night with my pastor before bible study, talked about relationships, the ups and downs, what to do..... He's knows everything... He's seen me the first time I came to that church, messed up, a look of despair, totally lost, He's known of the tough times i want thru the last 2 years, being homeless, unemployed, Just holding onto faith that I would get thru all this , trying to make a relationship that was most likely wrong work, lawyers, Losses, Phew!!!!

I do know this.... I am alive, and I need to get out there and give it all I got.... make life beautiful for someone, or Many!
and make it beautiful for myself as well!

You now know what you need to do...so it's time to put all that into action...take that step out and forgive yourself...really truly allow yourself to be forgiven...Satan will try and make you blame yourself over and over for the past..try and tell you lies that you aren't worth being forgiven...but the truth says...you are forgiven...you are free...and God is here in the present with you...wanting to show you that life is worth living for someone. Keep your chin up...there are brighter days headed your way...God's word says that His grace is new each morning.

Prayers continue for you.

Take care

I really like your positive attitude dude! You do need to forgive yourself and know that God is going to bless you as you do His will. It is good that you have forgiven others but do not hang on to the guilt. God has forgiven you and you have a clean slate.