Delicate danty Day 4
 Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 1:20 am
Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 1:20 amForgiveness Boy, did this lesson come at a good time. First, I have to say we have an awesome God. He knew what I needed before I needed to hear it. In the lesson I am supposed to think of someone that I said I have forgiven and truely haven't. That one was easy. I let my son use my atm card to go buy dog food last week.(before I even decided to even do the steps or the counseling journals.) He took my card and spent $15.00 more without asking. I had it, so my account was not overdrawn but, it left me in a tight for the rest of the month. He said he was sorry and I said ok but that  "I WOULD NEVER TRUST HIM WITH MY CARD AGAIN!" I meant it. I said ok when he said he was sorry . But I had fire in my heart and I wanted him to feel as hurt as I did. I wanted the guilt to eat at him. I wanted him to feel shame. All the things that I am now ashamed of. After our lesson talking about how would I feel if I was outside my child's room how would I feel, I cried. I let money cause me to hold hard feeling against my child. He knows better and I don't think he will ever do it again. So I forgive him and I will forget it, let him pay me back and never speak of it again. I learned all of this because of the lesson we had today. How awesome is God! There are so many things I am working on forgiving myself about. But, I have come to realize thru everyone's love and support, that there are things we all are trying to forgive ourselves for. Please continue to pray for me as I work on this. I am gonna keep pulling my weeds and working my garden. This Cinderella needs your prayers to get her crown. Thank you  
  
			 
  
 
  He knows us ohhh so well, but am so thankful he cares that much even in the smallest of details which could lead to big messes without His nudging.
  He knows us ohhh so well, but am so thankful he cares that much even in the smallest of details which could lead to big messes without His nudging.    
  Praying for you
 Praying for you 