i need some counseling if it's free

hello i'm 30/f/ohio i have been in the mental
ward like 3 times almost 4 times cuz i tried
to cut myself and i tried to pull my shunt
out i have had two friends commit sucide
and my real dad disowns me
ward like 3 times almost 4 times cuz i tried
to cut myself and i tried to pull my shunt
out i have had two friends commit sucide
and my real dad disowns me