Hi Jessica,
Welcome to the Oasis as for your emergency, yes it sounds as if satan is using this ungodly man to draw you from your walk with the Lord, as for the imediate delivery....not always, I am this way but I know some of mine is my sinful ways holding me back I believe in Him and want to do what pleases Him but I find myself weak and doing things I know are not
But I go to Him and ask daily for His strength, mercy and knowledge of how to become the man He wants me to be and you know what....it may not be instant but I have learned to be patient even though I want it NOW, He is teaching me
I know of the lonely feelings to well

you see I have been alone for 2 1/2 years but I have resisted going to the bars and such because I know that is not what I need, I just continue to ask Him to send her to me and until I feel that is the case I will stay alone and yes it is VERY hard.
That heavy feeling on your heart, are you sure it's not the knowing God wants more for you??
I am so glad you came here and glad to meet you as well, I pray the Lord shows you the path He has for you
Please take a look at the counseling pages here as well as the MANY other pages and let us know if you wish to talk more or have questions
God bless
Christnundrconstruxn (Cuc)