Dear Holy Spirit,
Why is it that because of You I never get what I deserve?
The things I do sometimes and the thoughts that enter
into my mind are worldly and unwise. Because of this, at
times, I am overwhelmed by it all and I do or say things
that I regret. And for all of this I know what I deserve.
I deserve to be punished and to have all mankind know
my sins so that I may bow my head in shame. Yet, there you are. Always waiting for
me. Always watching me. Always having faith that I will come to you with
the heavy load of worries and fears that I carry around with me so that YOU
will make all of my
problems disappear into the thin air. Yet instead of
talking to you I ignore you and I suffer through my mis-deeds
on my own. All alone I cry tears of self pity and fall
into such deep depression that even all the anti-depressants
in the world couldnt cure. I get so lonely sometimes Holy
Spirit. You know the thoughts that enter into my mind, the
thoughts that I cant even believe I am entertaining.
The loneliness is unbearable. And yet there you are
faithfully hoping I
would say your name. Why cant he even just
say my name, you think to yourself? There is so
much work to do. So many lost souls that are in need of
help to find the way. Yet I sit alone with despair in this
prison cell that I have created on my own. You have the
key to set me free if I would only ask you. If I would
have only been talking to you this whole time I would have
never been in this situation. Yet I go on and on all alone. All alone of
my own choice. Oh if I
would only swallow my pride and listen to you
to be quiet and listen. So what do you do with me now this wretched man
before you? Do you leave
me alone with my own demons? Do you forsake me and give up on me? Nope,
you do not. You work around me. You tell things to my friends and they
tell me and I feel hope. You speak to me through a song or a movie and I
feel you. I feel you in my heart whispering to me. I can see and feel
you in the laughter and the passion for life that the children have. Jesus
said we must be free like children to enter in to the Kingdom of God didnt
He? I can see what He means now. No worries. Not having
been polluted by this evil world we live in. I finally
break down and cry. I fall to my knees begging for your
forgiveness. You help me to translate my hearts desire to
Jesus and to my Father. They hear and feel me because of
you. They Forgive me and instead of passing down a
judgment of punishment for my harsh lack of faith and my
worldly ways they sentence me to Life without Parole.
Everlasting life in the presence of GOD. I feel like I
didnt get what I deserved. But you tell me that you
have forgiven and forgotten what I did. You really do not know what I
am talking about regarding my mis-deeds. So what am I to do now? I cannot
help but to feel the guilt of what I have done but your
love and forgiveness overpowers me and I fall into your
heart. You give me life. You breathe your life into me.
You told me that you knew me before the womb. You made my
heart beat and you blew the breath of life into my
nostrils. Oh but I am older now and wiser from past
experiences. But I will still never know myself like you
know me. If it was up to me I would have given up on me a
long time ago. Well, I guess I did give up didnt I?
Yet there is something inside of me, inside of us all
that have come to know You, Holy Spirit and Jesus and the
Father. Something inside that we forget about because the
world can be so overpowering. Something inside of us that
if we would all let it out all of the time, the world
wouldnt be what it is today. I believe I know now
what that thing inside of us all is. We, no matter how we
were brought into this world. Mom and Dads lil accident.
We may have been planned. We may have been tossed in a
dumpster and found by someone. All of that doesnt
matter. What matters is no matter how we were brought in
to this world we were all Conceived in Love. Not our
parents love, but your Love. And unlike the worlds or our
friends or our families empty promises. Your Promise is
forever and ever. Your Love is Unconditional and
Everlasting. So why is it that having already known all
of this in the past that I didnt talk to you? Why
did I ignore you? Oh I know why, the TV I can see. My
friends I can see and touch. My image in the mirror is in
the flesh. But you Holy Spirit are invisible. I cant
see you all of the time so I forget about you. Yet you
said not to live in the flesh you say to live in the
Spirit. Thats what matters doesnt it? Thats
where dreams are conceived. That place in the spirit is
where dreams are made reality. That is the place where
True Love is found. True Compassion for my fellow
brothers and sisters in this world that have REAL
problems. That is the place that you can use me to reach
them. That is the place where I am free and without sin.
But that is also the place where the dark ones are too. I
can sometimes feel them. Jesus said that He will not
speak to me that much because the prince of this world is
come and he speaks often. But what did Jesus do about
this? Did He rise up to Heaven from the mount and leave
us here all alone? He said I am always with you
even until the end of time. So where is He? I know
where He is. He is YOU. And He did not leave me. He did
not leave any of us alone. He gave us YOU. You are Jesus.
You are The Father and You are You all in one. You speak
to me constantly in my heart. You nudge me in the right
direction if I will listen. You are the still small voice
that Elijah heard. I have heard you too. I Love you my
Friend. I want to make you a Promise that I will never
forsake you again. But I am not going to. I am not going
to make any more vain promises to you ever again Holy
Spirit. You knew me before the womb. You have known me in
the flesh. You know I am human and I will still make
mistakes. You know my heart and you know the real me. You
know my Love for you and if a promise is to be made by me
it will be made in that place of the spirit. Because, I
KNOW, in that place I cannot go wrong. But a vain promise
from these lips I will not make anymore. Because I know
that the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. So I
will not try to fool myself or you Lord anymore. You are my Lord
and the God of my understanding. I do believe you Holy
Spirit. I do know you now. I really and truly know you
now. I will not be afraid of what the dark ones will do.
I will not be afraid of the monsters. Because you are
there protecting my soul. I will not fear what they may
do to my flesh for I know that they cant touch my
soul. It belongs to you. You are God and I am your child.
No matter how old I get and all grown up and all wise
with age I will always be your little child. I know where
that little boy is now Holy Spirit. He is in the spirit.
I want to stay there always and be that little boy. But I
know I cannot. Not yet anyway. One day soon I hope but
not right now. The world is where your lost ones are. The
world is where I am headed to find them for you. I will
find them and you will Love them and they will believe
and then they will be back home with you. I WILL testify
of Your LOVE. The harvest is great. The workers are few.
If I were to bury myself in a monastery somewhere to be
with you always I know I would lose you. I will try to
wait patiently for that great day. In our patience
possess we our souls Jesus said. I cannot do it alone I
know. I am yours. Guide me where you wish. I will go and
when I start to stray remind me Holy Spirit. Remind me
who I really am inside and take me there but only for a
minute and I will remember what its all about. I
eagerly await the day when we will all be together in
Heaven. That will be a day of great celebration and Peace.
But what many are missing is that that place is Here.
That place is Now. That place is YOU. You have shown me
and I have seen it. I have felt it. Heaven can be on
earth. Heaven is on earth. Heaven lives inside me. Heaven
lives inside all that have come to know and believe in
Jesus. Heaven is where I wish to be. Jesus said to look neither here nor
there for the Kingdom of Heaven for the Kingdom of Heaven is inside us.
It is you isn't it Holy Spirit? I wish to be with
you always. Please never let me forget that again. Once
again Thank you for NOT giving me what I deserve. Not
giving me what I think I deserve. Thank you for giving me
hope, life and Love. Not by might, nor by power but by My
Spirit says the Lord. He means YOU Holy Spirit and now I
know what He Means. I Love you my Friend.
Your Friend and Servant in Jesus
PS. I will be talking to
now a good time???
Thanks, anytime is a good time
you say huh?
Hmmm I had a
Feeling you would
PSS. To my brothers and sisters
in the Faith. If you have been where I have just been you
know. If you have not I hope you know now that it is
never too late. His mercy WILL come running. He is Love.
There is NO fear in REAL Love. If you ever feel fear then
it is not HIS Love. It is fake. Do not believe it. It is
not real. He is God and His name is Jesus. But for now,
while we wander this land longing for home, never forget
the Holy Spirit. He is HIS gift given to us. Talk to Him
always when you can. He understands us more than we know.
He Loves us and He is either carrying us or walking with
us. Lets acknowledge Him and we can do His work. We
are His Hands. We are His Heart. We are His Tools. We
were lost, now we are found. Lets Love our brothers
and sisters who are still lost. Lets show them the
way. All we need is the Holy Spirit. He will speak for us.
He will speak through us. Guess what? He just did
In HIS Image - The Trinity
Let us find out who the Holy Spirit is
and how the Trinity works so that we may understand who we are and how we are to
Matthew 5:48, Jesus told us to "Be perfect, just as our Father
in Heaven is perfect". Lets see how God works and how He created us in His
Genesis 1:26, God said
that He made us in His image. What does that mean? In
1 John 5:7 it says there
are 3 that bear record in Heaven: the Father, the Word and the Holy Ghost, these
3 are 1, this is also known as the Trinity. John says the Word instead of the
Son. Jesus has been called the Word of God many times in the Bible.
Now we as humans are an extremely diverse people. We all have different colors of
skin, hair, eyes, even our fingerprints and DNA is all diverse and unique to
each person. So if God created us in His image what is it that we all have in
1 John 5:8
says that there are 3 that bear witness in earth: the spirit,
the water, and the blood. Lets borrow a little bit of mans scientific knowledge
shall we? They tell us that our bodies are made up of
approximately 90% water. So we can reasonably say that the water John refers to here is
the flesh or our body. Each of us has unique DNA in our blood. In
it says that the voice of Abelís blood cries out to God for being slain by his
brother Cain. Since Abel was dead at the time we can reasonably say that the
blood is not the flesh but something else. Since it was Abel crying out we can
say that the blood is our soul. The unique individual in us all. The decision maker. The
soul is our unique individuality and will live on forever after we die. God
granted us all with the free will and ability to choose what we will do with our
soul forever. These are OUR choices... eternal life with God by accepting Jesus
Christ's awesome gift of covering us and forgiving our sins by HIS blood He shed
on the cross for us all or eternal damnation in that is to say denying who Jesus
is and not believing in what He did for us all. In
other words eternity With or Without God. The body is a tool as well as a vessel
to hold our soul and spirit. The spirit is the heart. I am sure you have heard
the saying, 'wow she's got spirit' or 'that guy has a lotta heart'. As sure as
the heart pumps the blood through our veins and gives us life so does the spirit
drive our soul. Without the heart beating we would die. Without our spirit we
would be spiritually dead. Jesus said we are the salt of the earth but if the
salt has lost its savor what good is it for? Men throw the worthless salt on to
Wow, that is what it feels like too. We all have had
times when we didn't even feel like getting up out of bed. We had no energy, no
drive, no passion. Such is the spirit, without it we are dead. The spirit in us
is the power, it is the energy, it creates our attitude and surroundings by what
we think. That is why we must always think good thoughts for as sure as we can
have a good spirit in us when we are thinking good with our soul (mind) we can
think evil thoughts as well and this would in turn make our spirit evil which
grieves the Holy Spirit.
So...How are we created in Gods
image? Soul, decision maker, thinker of ideas, the boss if you will just like
our Father. We have a body, flesh, water a vessel a tool just as Jesus was a
tool because he chose to do what he did.
may ask... But I thought the body is ashes to ashes and dust
to dust and all that? That is true but Jesus through His victory on the Cross
destroyed that old body of death and sin and when we believe in Him we die too
and we are reborn. Jesus has a new body in heaven and one day we will too.
Corinthians 15:52-54 I bet its an amazing body too if it lives forever without
sickness, pain or death. Then we have a spirit. What we feel, our emotions, the
thing that is the driving force behind what it is we seek in life. Success or
failure, our spirit is with us doing as we wish. Such is the Holy Spirit, He
does and says what He is told by our Father & Jesus.
Spirit makes intercession for us for we know not what we should pray for. He
searches our spirits and relays what it is we are yearning for and tells God for
Romans 8:26-27 He is the breath of life. Imagine the feeling
you get when you are deeply passionate about something. You feel as if you can
do all things and nothing can stop you from reaching your goal. Imagine that Spirit from God! He CAN do
all and there is nothing that can stop Him. So this is what He made in His
image...Father = Blood (soul, mind), Word = Water (flesh, body), Holy Spirit =
Spirit (heart, emotions). Ok, so we know that our soul will live forever in
either Gods presence (Heaven) or out of Gods presence (Hell and Lake of Fire).
We know that our body now will go back to the dust from whence it came. One day
whether we are alive or dead we will receive that immortal body. So what of our
spirit? Where does it go? The spirit, our breath of life, goes back up to God.
When one died they called it 'giving up the ghost.'
said as he was about to die upon the cross. "Father, into thy hands I commend my
spirit". And then He gave up the ghost...He died. God loved us so much that He
sent His Only Son Jesus to be a sacrifice for our sins. The best news is that God the Father raised up Jesus after 3 days in
the ground and by us simply believing in this event and giving up our own selves
over to His desire for us and to follow Jesus and carry the cross all the days
of our lives we will receive all our wants on this earth and everlasting life in
the presence of the Lord our God.
21 & 22
ridiculous as it sounds for a man who makes pottery to have one of his jars of
clay he created to change shape of what the man wanted for it and to rebel and
instead of being a beautiful piece of perfect art the pot decides to crack or
become wobbly and take its own shape and do what IT wants. I think we can all agree
that the creator of the pottery knows what's best for his art than the art
itself. So does our God know what's better for us than we think we know what's
best for ourselves. Lets let Him mold us into His vision of what he wants for
us. Lets let the Holy Spirit guide us into this Truth. He is all we have on this
earth that is pure and He is the Spirit of our Lord Jesus. Soon after Jesus rose
back up to heaven to sit at the right hand of the Father, He sent us a
Comforter, a Helper, a Friend, a Teacher... Our Fathers Spirit. The Holy Spirit.
Let us join with the Holy Spirit. we have much work to do, many more are lost
than are found. He is waiting to start...What are we waiting for?
"... But by MY
Spirit," says the Lord God
How long has the Holy
Spirit been around? Did He just show up one day when Jesus was baptized by John?
Nope, He was there in the Beginning as well. He
moved upon the waters of the deep and He was the power that turned on the light when God
said Let there be light.
Genesis 1:2 Ever since mankind first sinned in the
Garden the Holy Spirit has been grieved by mankind. God said that His Spirit
would not contend with man forever because man is of the flesh. In the Old
Testament God did not pour out His Spirit upon all mankind as he has done now.
Praise be to Jesus Our Lord for sacrificing Himself for us so that we may now
enjoy the fruits of the Holy Spirit. He picked certain people to be filled with His Spirit.
Such as in
Exodus 31:3 God placed the Holy Spirit upon a man named Bezaleel who
was given the gift of creating the tabernacle and the ark of the covenant and
many other items that God told Moses to build to His specifications. God wanted
His worship vessels to be made perfect so he filled Bezaleel with His Spirit and
in wisdom and understanding to make these vessels of worship perfect before Him.
Nothing has changed at all today except that instead WE are the worship vessels that God is
creating, or rather RE-creating. Back then it was very important that the one
God chose to build these vessels of worship was filled with God's Spirit. Make
sure if you attend a church now that the one who is leading the church is one
like Bezaleel, that is to say, Filled with Gods Spirit. More importantly, since
we all are filled with His Spirit now because of faith in Jesus Christ, is that we
follow His instructions on presenting us and others perfect before the Lord.
1 John 2:24-29 Samson also was filled with the Holy Spirit. Samson was a Judge of Israel
appointed by God and he was a mighty defender. Yes, he broke down and told
Delilah the deceiver that the secret of his strength was his hair and that his
hair had never been cut since the day he was born. Yes, Delilah told his enemies
and they cut off his hair and blinded him and chained him to their great halls
where they gathered to laugh and celebrate over their enemy Samson. But, Samson's TRUE strength and power rested
not in his hair. The power was from the Holy Spirit that lived in him.
13:25 said the Spirit of the Lord moved Samson at times.
Judges 14:19 The Spirit
of the Lord came upon Samson at times in Power as Samson would defeat his
enemies which were in fact Gods enemies. Like today, we may believe in something
that we have such as a favorite Bible that God has used to speak to us or a
certain way to pray that helps us get in tune better with God, a favorite song,
clothing, favorite cross of jewelry. If we lose that certain thing like Samson
lost his hair. It may be devastating to us, but there is one thing we can NEVER
lose or have taken. That is He who lives inside us. Because when Samson was bald
and blind chained to the pillars of the great hall where all the Philistines sat
laughing and praising their little wanna be god for placing Samson in their
hands, Samson prayed for strength from the Lord one more time and asked to die
along with all the Philistines. God granted his wish and Samson killed more of
His enemies that day then all he killed during his life put together.
16:28-30 God will always defend His Holy name and if you defend God He will
always defend you. The Holy Spirit can come upon you and stay forever as He did
for young David the shepherd boy who would soon become King of Gods people
1 Samuel 16:13 But in the next verse (14) it says that the Spirit of the
Lord left King Saul and an evil spirit came upon him to trouble him. So we see
back in the OT that God could remove His Holy Spirit from His Anointed ones if
they disobeyed Gods command, which was the case for Saul.
1 Samuel 15:10-29.
King David ended up being sought out and found by Saul's men because David could
play an awesome harp. When David would play his harp for Saul, David being
anointed with the Holy Spirit, the evil spirit would leave. Saul grew to love
David even as if he was one of his own sons. But the evil spirit would come over
him at times and Saul would try and kill David. A very important lesson we
should learn of King David, 1 of many lessons from him, was that even when Saul was trying to
kill him and David was running and hiding out like an outlaw for many years,
David had many chances where God put Saul's life in his hands to take it. David
never did lay a hand on Saul to harm him. David knew that he was anointed with
the Holy Sprit to be King over all Israel and that Saul had Gods Spirit removed
from him yet David knew still that Saul was Gods anointed too and that one must
never harm an anointed of God. Look at what happened to those who harmed Samson?
We should learn from David's wise choices. Now, all of us that believe in Jesus
have the Holy Spirit. We should treat each other with the same respect David
showed Saul even if they don't like us or are after us. Maybe this is what Jesus meant when He commanded us to "Love our
enemies". David was called the apple of Gods eye. I can see why. We are all
anointed and even if we have a bad day and grieve the Holy Spirit we should help
each other when we are down.
Galatians 6:1-3 Let us play our harps when we are Holy Spiritual
for others who are being tormented. God will ease their suffering. King David
spoke of the Holy Spirit many times in the Psalms. There is no doubt through the
history of the Bible and even now, those who are chosen by God and those who
choose to believe have a close relationship with God daily. Not a once a week or
twice a year thing in church but daily. We want to be with those we Love all the
time why would it be any different with God? It is not and since He is the true
meaning of Love it is all the more important and special to commune with Him
constantly. We do this by talking to the Holy Spirit constantly and by asking
Him to help us pray. Also, it is very important to take time out daily and just
be still and listen for the Holy Spirits voice. Just as Elijah the Prophet found
out after a 40 days and nights journey off of the strength of the Angels food to
Mt. Horeb the mount of God. He witnessed a strong wind that ripped the mountain
in pieces and a mighty earthquake and then a raging fire. But the Lord was not
in any of these. Then Elijah heard a still small voice. And God talked to Elijah
and Elijah heard Him. The Lord was in the still small voice.
1 Kings 19:4-18 The Lord also told Zechariah the Prophet, "Not by might, nor by power, but by My
Spirit says the Lord."
Jesus was and is meek and he tells us to follow in His example and to walk after
Him. Makes sense that we would need to be quiet and listen to hear Him. By God's
Spirit will He save. By His Spirit will He change lives and win them over for
Christ. We must be in the Spirit to worship God for God is a Spirit. Jesus said
Now is the time for this.
John 4:23-24 Before Elijah heard the still small voice on the mountain of God he was a mighty
powerful tool of God. He, by Gods command of course, caused it not to rain for 3
1/2 years. He killed over 400 of the evil Queen Jezebels prophets of Baal (pagan
idol). He called down fire from Heaven and burned up armies of King Ahab that
were trying to capture him. But after this, Jezebel sent him word that she was
going to kill him as he killed her false prophets. He ran in fear and asked God
to take his life for he had defended God as he was supposed too but he just
couldn't bear it anymore. This is when God sent His angel to feed him cakes and
water and sent him on a 40 day journey without food to be completely dead to the
flesh's constant crying and wants. Just as Moses did and Jesus in the
wilderness. God perhaps was showing Elijah that yes He is powerful and can
destroy with a mighty vengeance. But that's not what He is trying to do. It is
an attention getter and most of us have seen His anger and it is a terrifying
thing to be in. Our Lord is an all consuming fire. But God is telling Elijah and
all of us it is not by might nor by power but by my Spirit that will save
mankind. God wants His creation, ALL of us, to be saved. To change from our
wicked ways and turn to Him.
2 Peter 3:9
Soon after this awesome revelation, Elijah anointed a few people including his
replacement prophet Elisha and then was taken up to heaven in a whirlwind.
Elijah didn't die. But he did come back and it was foretold by the Prophet
Malachi that he would.
Malachi 3:1 and
Malachi 4:5-6 Elijah came back as John the Baptist. The angel told Johns mother that John
shall be filled with the Holy Ghost even from her womb and that he shall go
before the Lord in the spirit and power of Elijah.
Luke 1:17 John was
on fire in the Holy Spirit out in the wilderness but instead of calling down
fire on people that were out to get him, he was baptizing sinners in the Jordan
river. He was preparing the way for Jesus to come and save them. John spoke out
against those who would not repent. One of these was King Herod and the evil
Queen Herodias who were living in adultery. This ended up getting Johns head cut
off at the evil planning of the evil Queen Herodias. Talk about your destiny,
Elijah was running from an evil Queen back then and here we go again. Then he
was calling down fire on those who were sent to get him. But this time he went
quietly when they came for him. He knew that it was ok. I bet he wasn't scared
anymore even though he knew what was going to happen. He knew that it was Gods
Spirit that changes lives not by Power nor by Might. Jesus told the Pharisees
that John the Baptist was Elijah which meant Jesus was the Messiah.
Jesus, of course being the Word of God, makes this point again to James and
John, 2 of His Apostles. It came near time that Jesus was to be received up so
Jesus longed to head for Jerusalem. He sent messengers before him and they went
into a village of the Samaritans. But the Samaritans would not receive Jesus
because they saw He was heading towards Jerusalem. (what does this mean you ask?
Take a few minutes and read Jesus' explanation of the disagreements between the
Jews and the Samaritans
So seeing that they turned Jesus away James and John asked Jesus if they should
command fire come down from heaven and consume them as Elijah did? Jesus quickly
turned and rebuked them for saying this and said to them " You know not what
kind of SPIRIT you are of. For I have NOT come to destroy men's lives but to
9:51-56 Well Jesus make it extremely clear right there and all throughout
the Bible what Spirit we are of. We are of the Spirit He is of. We are of HIS
Spirit. The Holy Spirit. He did not send us out to destroy men's lives but to
save them with His Word. His Good News. We cannot do it on our own. Every time
we try we fail. But when the Holy Spirit is working through us we can do all
things in Christ. He is the key and He is here already waiting for us to get
going. We don't have to be scared anymore like Elijah was. It doesn't matter who
hates us. The world is going to hate us.
John 15:17-21 We
have one who Loves us. Death can not separate His Love for us nor our Love for
Him. Like King David who ran from Saul and hid out for years was strong and
faithful so must we be. David was down and scared too and he wrote about it in
143 He wrote about all the times God saved him too and how much he loved the
Psalm 116 All of the past people in the Bible who loved God had one thing in common. They
were led by the Holy Spirit.
Romans 8:14 He
is ready for you. We, being human, will never be ready for Him if we do not take
that leap of faith. we can put it off for tomorrow or next week but the time is
Now. We can never be ready for His grace for we are not worthy. We just need to
accept that grace means mercy for our inabilities. We don't ever take a bath
before we take a shower. How can we be ready to accept the Holy Spirit by
waiting for the right time when we feel we would be worthy for Him? We never
will be so do it now. Jesus said that God will give the Holy Spirit to whoever
Luke 11:13 To truly live the life Jesus intended for us we must have Him leading our
hearts. Miracles, Healings, Salvation of Lost Souls, the Best Feeling in the
world is waiting for all of us who follow the Holy Spirit. Read the Book of
Acts. Nothing has changed since then. Just us believers and our doubts given to
us by the enemy and his subtle ways. We need to stop listening to the voices who
are full of lies and deceit and START listening to the voice of the Holy Spirit
who will lead us into all Truth, Love and True Happiness. Most importantly, He
will lead us to others who are lost and in need of Gods Grace. We are the Tools,
we need constant care and sharpening which only he can provide for us. Lets do
it Lets get to it. Holy Spirit??? We are yours. Guide us and show us your will
for us. We are Ready...