THE TRUTH OF ALISSA LYNNE
by Alissa Lynne - Purple Butterfly of Christ
Chapter 6 - Self Esteem
What are you worth?
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own
understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy
As a human being, trying to
do those verses is sometimes the hardest thing to do. It is a daily
struggle for me. It is hard but God will show you how, when you do, what
wonders He will do for you, for we let go and let God work in our lives. I
am thankful that I know my faults and growing in Christ I am able to
recognize the faults and be able to take them to God and ask Him to mold
me in the way that He wants me to be.
I thank God for giving me the
strength to look in the mirror and see the real Alissa every morning. I
am thankful to God that when I look in the mirror every morning that I
actual like the woman staring back at me, I see a woman that is kind,
caring, loving, compassionate, passionate, sweet, and gentle. I see a
beautiful woman who needs to do her hair more often and stop being lazy. I
used to look in the mirror and see nothing but negative and never knew
what I was worth. I thank God for coming into my life for I look in the
mirror and see a blessed and truly happy woman staring back at me. I am
not saying that all my days are perfect; I still have trust issues with
those around me and thank God for molding me to change.
I know that there are many of
us out there, whom due to the things that have gone on in our lives; do
not trust those around us. We have to turn that all over to Jesus and
though it may sound easy it is not that easy but it is oh so worth it
when we do. God will take you to that next level and things that were hard
before are no longer hard and there are new challenges and things facing
you that you have been given in life. I look at the new challenges as a
place where I get to learn more about Jesus. I thank God for even though
there are days that nothing seems to go right in my mind God will keep
me sane. See, I was at the point in my life when I was looking in the
mirror and hating the woman I saw there. I saw nothing good in her and saw
nothing that I liked in the slightest way. I thought I was worthless that
I was of no value or concern to anyone including my family. I felt that
I could not help anyone let alone help myself. I did not see a reason for
living or giving anyone any of my love what was love to me then love
was nothing but a word that held no meaning. I was so lost in the world
and so far from God but God saw fit to bless me to hear and understand
His calling on my life, God saw someone worth it, someone who needed His
love and who needed to love and to understand love.
So as the Question Was Posed What Are You Worth?
I am a beautiful child of God
who struggles every day with walking the straight and narrow path of
Christ, but I know that God is with me and I know that God will keep me
and I know that God will send encouragement when needed. God will use me
to encourage others when needed which in turn strengthens me. I praise
God for He is so good to me and I am thankful to God for He sees me worthy
of His love so yes, I am worth it and yes, I will continue to praise God
always. I am a child of the King, I am a follower of Christ and I am worth
it we must believe that we are blessed and highly favored and I thank
God for showing me that I am worth more than I ever thought I was. I can
stand tall and know that no matter what comes my way God is with me
always and to know that everything works out for my good for that is in
His word. (Romans 8:28)
Philippians 4:4:13 Rejoice
in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice. Let your moderation be known
unto all men. The Lord is at hand. Be careful for nothing; but in every
thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be
made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all
understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are
honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever
things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any
virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things,
which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do:
and the God of peace shall be with you. But I rejoiced in the Lord
greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again;
wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity. Not that I speak
in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am,
therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to
abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and
to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things
through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Romans 8:28-32 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God,
to them who are the called according to his purpose. For whom he did
foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his
Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he
did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also
justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified. What shall we
then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? He that
spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not
with him also freely give us all things?
So many people are in
excellent shape physically because they regularly work out at the gym,
working those muscles and building their bodies. We are to work out our
spiritual muscles by working out our faith, by trusting in the Lord and
having faith that He will do what is necessary for us to make it through
the day. I have started to love working out my faith. I know that God is
awesome and He has done so many awesome things in my life already that I
know that God is with me and that all I have to do is sit back and wait
upon the Lord!!! I am exercising my faith and my relationship with the
Lord is strengthening I love it for that makes each circumstance that
comes at me just a little easier to deal with!!! Praise God!
There are times that we
actually want to wallow in the self-pity, or the pain, or the anger that
is the enemy trying to block your blessings of receiving more faith, trust
and love for Jesus. We have to remember that despite all things the
enemy is always trying to defeat us in the good that God is giving us. We
have to remember that God is with us and will always be with us and that
we should praise Him always for all things big and small for that will
bring us closer to Him and it will lessen our pain and our hurt!
I say all this to my sisters
because so many times we cry out to the Lord that we want someone to hold
us and to love us. Well God will do so in His own time and I believe that
He will when we stop focusing on the man and focus on our relationship
with the Lord. Let God pick the man for you and let the Lord give you what
you need as when He does He will give you some if not all your wants. If
God would not have had my sweetie and I met the way we did I am not sure
I would have talked to him for he was not my type I am 5ft 7 in he is
5ft 4in that would have disqualified him right there. He loves the Lord
and he treats me the way a woman should be treated and I pray that I will
always be blessed with him and if it is Gods will, I will be!
My sisters trust in the
Lord and Let go/Let God concentrate on getting you ready to be a wife to
the right man. It is not easy and it is not going to be a bed of roses but
as long as God has blessed it it will be right. You may not be getting
the man of your dreams because you are not ready for the man of your
dreams. You may not really be committed to the Lord, as you should be.
There was a story that I read somewhere I think it was in one of my
groups. There was a man who was praying for a wife and he prayed to God
and had a long list of good qualities such as nice, kind, understanding,
patience and loving
well the man was waiting and waiting so he asked God
why did the woman not come. God told him why would God send him a woman
who was kind, when he was mean, understanding, patience and loving when he
was not those things that he needed to work on himself before God would
bless him with the woman he was requesting. I believe that to the core
we have to be what we want we cannot ask for the best when we are not
willing to be the best! Hold out my sisters work on you and your
relationship with the Lord and watch the blessings flow and one of them
might be that man you want. However, if it is not the case guess what?
Your relationship will be stronger in the Lord and you will understand why
it is not that way.
As my relationship with God
is growing more each day, I am amazed at the love that I feel inside of me
that I know is God loving me and caring for me. I have never felt this
kind of love before in my life. We were commanded to love God with all we
Matthew 22:36-38 King James Version - Master, which
is the great commandment in the law? Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love
the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all
thy mind. This is the first and great commandment.
New International Version - "Teacher, which
is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied: "Love the Lord
your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your
mind. This is the first and greatest commandment."
Young's Literal Translation - Teacher, which
[is] the great command in the Law?' And Jesus said to him, `Thou shalt
love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with
all thine understanding -- this is a first and great command;
When I look at my life, I see
things that I never noticed before. I am the way I am because of life
experiences, I am learning to love myself, love God, and to love others as
God would have me to do. He wants us to love each other as He loves us. It
is not as easy as it sounds; we have to love the drunk, the drug addict,
the prostitute, our family, and our enemies, those that despise us, those
that say they love us and do not. We have to love every one those that
are out to hurt us. I am so glad that God has laid that on my heart, as I
think that the key of starting to love all these people is to love
ourselves and let God love us and feel His love for us. As we start to
feel the love of Christ in our lives, we cannot help but love each other.
We cannot help but love everyone we meet. God wants us to just love each
other as He loves us. People ask what is wrong with the world today, well
Satan is real, but so is God we need to stand and trust God and love.
The key to me is the love, all about the love. We have to let the love
fill us up and just let it flow from our hearts, from our minds, from our
mouths and just love one another. I just cannot express this enough, we
must love each other, there is no time to hate, and there is not time to
hold onto past feelings. God does not stop loving us because of our past,
He wipes the slate clean and each time, He loves us unconditionally, He
wants us to love each other in the same manner.
So many times, I have come
across people who do not know their worth. They do not know how special
they truly are. I am one of those people who can see the good even in the
bad of people. I married two men because I could do that, yes a great
trait that can be self destructive if you do not listen to God and not
marry whom He tells you to marry.
I have been blessed to come
out of the kind of past that I had and love the woman I see in the mirror
but so many have been through so much pain, look in the mirror, and cannot
stand that person. They look in the mirror and wonder what others see. I
have come across many bitter people, who are still hurting. If you are
walking through life and people are saying that you are hard, stern or
even tell you that you are mean, it could be that you are holding onto
pain and hurt still. I was one of those people.
JESUS is the only way to get
rid of that pain, that searing pain in your very being that is affecting
your every day life. You cannot stay in a relationship, you do not get
along with people, or you just keep to yourself. Jesus is the only way to
end that cycle. You have to let go and let God work on your heart.
I look in the mirror and see
my worth for I am worthy due to the blood that was shed for me on
Calvary! I thank God for when He looks upon me, He sees that blood and not
I am worthy because of the
love that He has for me and the love He has bestowed upon me. I am worthy
because He said I am!
If you are suffering from
pain and hurt, know that you do not have to go that route; Jesus can heal
your very soul and pain. Trust in the Lord and He shall never leave you.
We Are All In This Together You Are Worthy You Are Worthy You Are
It is not easy, there are
times that I have not let it go and I lash out in pain at those around me.
I thank God for giving me a man who understands that. I love him but I am
human and sometimes he says things that just work my last nerve. Why is it
that he is working my nerves? It is because not all the love is manifested
in my heart at that time. I have to wake up every morning fighting the
enemy so that it does not take over my heart that day. I wake up in the
morning praying to God, reading His word, listening to gospel music all
the time. I go to work listening to my gospel music, come into work and
listen to my sermons and gospel music all day. Hummm but even then I am
fighting for all it takes is 1 minute away from that and the enemy
attacks, sometimes it gets the best of me for a minute and some times I
run so fast away from it that it does not even have a chance to catch me
for days. I am thanking God that I still wake up every morning fighting
that enemy off and putting on the full amour of God. I am thanking God
that sometimes it may be hard but God is with me. I thank God that I know
what I am worth. I am a child of the King and I shall be given hinds feet
and lifted up away from my enemies.
I love my life
because despite all the trials and tribulations that I go through, all it
does is bring me closer to Jesus.
I love my life
because I am walking in the light of the Lord and I will praise Him always
for He continues to bring me through the darkness!
I love my life
for I am a mother of a beautiful son, who is the cutest son on the planet
earth. God has blessed me with a child who when he smiles he lights up not
just my heart but also all those around him. He is truly a blessing from
I love my life
for I am a sister to not just my siblings but to all I meet. I treat all
those I meet as my family for in my heart they are.
I love my life
for I am a survivor and conquer of the things that have happened in my
life, God has blessed me even when I did not know Him as I know Him now.
I love my life
for as I look at all that I have, I realize that I have an abundance of
love in my life, and without love I would be nothing.
I love my life
for I have a job, I have a car, and I have the things that I need to get
through life with a little more ease. There are people who are jobless and
without a car and would love to trade places with me.
I love my life
for I have the use of my body, sure it aches and it hurts from time to
time but I am blessed to be able to walk most time, I am blessed to be
able to do what I need to do, I may do it a little slower but God is
blessing me to continue on in His name and do what I need to do to provide
for my family.
I love my life
for I am blessed and I am highly favored. I am truly a child of the Lord
and I am able to call on Him whenever I want to call on Him and He will
hear my prayer.
I love my life
for God is in charge of my life and has made all the things that I love in
my life and about my life possible.
What do you love about your life? Are you thankful for where you are in your
life right now? Do you know that God is here for us and that we should be
thankful every single day of our lives and not change the way we think
because the season of the year changes? We should be children of God all
the time and bless those around us with the word of God and the love of
God inside of us. May you accept Gods blessing for you and be thankful
that He is with us every day and show Him that you are thankful for His
love. God Bless! I love you all!
Published by: Alissa Lynne Verona, PA
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