Many years ago I found myself in a life and death
struggle with Satan. Only through the Grace of God, did I live to
share this life changing story with you. I pray that you never find
yourself in a struggle as tough as this, but I fear there are many
who are struggling with Satan in this way, or some other way just as
tough to deal with. For this purpose I am sharing this with you.
I pray it will be an encouragement and a Blessing to all who read
I pray it will also strengthen your faith
in the fact that we have a spirit that will live on
Written to Glorify God
In Christian Love
Kenneth M. Bee
of Body Experience) we are all destine
Out of Body Experience, we are all going
to have one. We all have a living spirit that is going to spend
eternity some where. This is not only the belief of all Christians,
It is a true fact. A fact that I learned first hand by the grace of
God. This is my true life story.
First, I am assuming the reader is already
in a saved relationship with our Lord. If not PLEASE look into
getting there before it is too late. God loves you.
To come into a Saved relationship, we need to
study the Bible and get to know our Lord and the price he paid on
the Cross for our sins. Then we need to except him into our hearts
and realize that we are all sinners and need a savior.
We need to repent of our old way of life and be
reborn again by being obedient, by confessing our belief that Jesus
is indeed the son of God, and then being baptized. A point where we
put on Christ, are buried with Him and then rise up, born again to
walk in the newness of life. Read Romans, 6: 3-5 to understand about
OK this being said let us look in to this
Out of Body Experience a little farther. In studying the Bible we
read in Matt. 10: 28, Jesus him self is speaking and makes a
distinction between the two.
(Do not fear them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the
soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and
body in Hell)
We have a
body and also a soul, and or Spirit.
Here is a scripture where Paul is writing
to the church at Corinth. He tells of a friend he knew earlier that
was swept up to heaven. He does not know if this was an OBE (out of
body experience) or if body and spirit went together. The thing is,
Paul is pointing out that it is possible. This is also what I am
trying to do, explain that on rare occasions, there has been
separation of body and spirit. Proving the fact and supporting our
Here it is in 2 Cor.
12: 2, 3 The Message Bible
(For instance, I know a man who, fourteen years
ago, was seized by Christ and swept in ecstasy to the heights of
heaven. I really don't know if this took place in the body or out
of it; only God knows. I also know that this man was hijacked
into paradise—again, whether in or out of
the body, I don't know; God knows.)
This man was able to see Heaven; he also
was able to see Paradise, the dwelling place of the spirit. Here we
wait for the day of Judgment when we will be resurrected and go on
to Heaven. Luke 16: 19-31 explains it well. Here Jesus teaches what
happens when the soul or spirit leaves the body at our death. This
is Jesus teaching the parable about the rich man and Lazarus.
(Luke 16: 19 “There was a certain rich man who was
clothed in purple and fine linen and fared sumptuously every day. 20
But there was a certain beggar named Lazarus, full of sores, who was
laid at his gate, 21 desiring to be fed with the crumbs which fell
from the rich man’s table. Moreover the dogs came and licked his
sores. 22 So it was that the beggar died, and was carried by the
angels to Abraham’s bosom.
is very easy to understand that it was not the beggar’s body, but
his spirit that was carried by the Angels to Abraham’s Bosom. (In
The rich man also died and was buried.
23 And being in torments in Hades, he lifted up his eyes and saw
Abraham afar off and Lazarus in his bosom.
The same with the rich man, his body was buried and his spirit was
carried off to the torment side of Hades, (the dwelling place
of the spirit)
“Then he cried and said, ‘Father Abraham, have mercy on me, and send
Lazarus that he may dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my
tongue; for I am tormented in this flame.’ 25 But Abraham said,
‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things,
and likewise Lazarus evil things; but now
he is comforted and you are tormented.
There are two sides to Hades. On one side is
Paradise and on the other side is Torment.
When we die we are prejudged and our spirit is taken
there and stays there until the Day of Judgment. Then we are
reunited with our bodies and raised up to meet Jesus in the sky.
Then we stand before God on
the Day of Judgment and then it’s off to Heaven or Hell.
And besides all this, between us and you there is a great gulf
fixed, so that those who want to pass from here to you cannot, nor
can those from there pass to us.’
completes the picture of Hades by explaining the two sides are
separated by a large gulf fixed where the spirits can not pass back
and forth. This also explains how Jesus could talk to those in
Torment and still be in Paradise while he was out of his body
between the crucifixion and the resurrection. They can not pass
back and forth, but they are commutating back and forth.
27 “Then he said, ‘I beg you therefore, father, that
you would send him to my father’s house, 28 for I have five
brothers, that he may testify to them, lest they also come to this
place of torment.’ 29 Abraham said to him, ‘They have Moses and the
prophets; let them hear them.’
They had Moses
and the prophets, we have the Bible.
And he said, ‘No, father Abraham; but if one goes to them from the
dead, they will repent.’ 31 but he said to him, ‘If they do not hear
Moses and the prophets, neither will they be persuaded though one
rise from the dead.’
You could say,
“If they do not believe the Bible neither will they be
Jesus told the thief on the cross, (Luke 23: 43 today you will
be with me in Paradise.)
When Jesus and the thief died that terrible Friday,
Angels carried them off to Paradise. It is so easy to except it for
what it says. Jesus went to Hades, the Paradise side for three days
and then went back to his grave sight and was resurrected, showing
us what will happen to us at the rapture when we are resurrected and
rise up to meet him in the sky. It is not clear weather Jesus spent
time in Hell during that time but we know he spent time in Paradise
because he said so.
The Bible is full of teachings of the soul
or spirit leaving the body for a period of time and returning.
about Lazarus in John 11: 42, 43.
When Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead, Lazarus had had an out of
body experience that lasted several days. Jesus had an out of body
experience that lasted three days when he went to Paradise with the
thief on the cross. Then Jesus returned and arose on Easter Morning.
If there is any doubt in your mind about having
a spirit that will leave this body when we die and live on for ever,
then please study on in the Bible, because there is plenty of
scripture to back it up.
OK, I believe that we can all agree that
we have a living spirit that lives on after we die. After all,
isn’t that what this is all about? Our spirit ending up in Heaven
Now I would like to point out the
fact that on occasion, the soul or spirit has been known to leave
this body and return, at a near death experience.
Here is a study done by a man by the name of Raymond Moody. The
interesting point here is that this study is covering people who may
or may not have any idea what they are experiencing.
I find it fascinating that these people
have had experiences along the same lines and have felt that there
is a defiant separation of body and soul when they don’t necessarily
have any connection with Bible teaching on the subject.
Mr. Moody’s Report
Raymond Moody interviewed many people who had been resuscitated
after having had accidents and he then put together an idealized
version of a typical near-death experience. He emphasized that no
one person described the whole of this experience, but each feature
was found in many of the stories. Here is his description:
A man is dying and, as he reaches the point of
greatest physical distress, he hears himself pronounced dead by his
doctor. He begins to hear an uncomfortable noise, a loud ringing or
buzzing, and at the same time feels himself moving very rapidly
through a long dark tunnel. After this, he suddenly finds himself
outside of his own physical body, but still in the immediate
physical environment, and he sees his own body from a distance, as
though he is a spectator. He watches the resuscitation attempt
from this unusual vantage point and is in a state of emotional
After a while, he collects himself and becomes more
accustomed to his odd condition. He notices that he still has a
'body,' but one of a very different nature and with very different
powers from the physical body he has left behind.
Soon other things begin to happen. Others come to
meet and to help him. He glimpses the spirits of relatives and
friends who have already died, and a loving, warm spirit of a kind
he has never encountered before -- a being of light -- appears
before him. This being asks him a question, non-verbally, to make
him evaluate his life and helps him along by showing him a
panoramic, instantaneous playback of the major events of his life.
At some point he finds himself approaching some
sort of barrier or border, apparently representing the limit between
experiences in the afterlife and does not want to return. He is
overwhelmed by intense feelings of joy, love, and peace. Despite his
attitude, though, he somehow reunites with his physical body and
Later he tries to tell
others, but he has trouble doing so. In the first place, he can find
no human words adequate to describe these unearthly episodes. He
also finds that others scoff, so he stops telling other people.
Still, the experience affects his life profoundly especially his
views about death and its relationship to life.
The parallel between this kind of account and many OBEs is clear.
There is the tunnel traveled through as well as the experiences of
seeing one's own body from outside and seeming to have some other
kind of body, and the ineffability is familiar.
One is tempted to
conclude that in death a typical OBE, or astral projection, occurs,
and is followed by a transition to another world, with the aid of
people who have already made the crossing, and that of higher beings
in whose plane one is going to lead the next phase of existence.
Although Moody's work gave a good idea of what dying could be like
for some people, it did not begin to answer questions such as how
common this type of experience is.
I am 72 years old as I write this, and for me it
happened once in my life time, and it changed my life for ever, and
I can not thank God enough for what He has done for me. I feel that
it is God’s will that I share this with you. It taught me a great
lesson in life. It taught me that no matter where we find ourselves,
no matter how bad things get, God is there for us, if we will
just turn to Him. Here is that experience.
My OBE (out
of body experience)
Have you ever felt the world was caving in around you
and that you were powerless to stop it? This is one of those times.
My Mother was having a hard time with her health and as she looked
for answers, she turned to drinking. To make it worse, my brother
was caring it in to her. She was living alone and not taking very
good care of her self. She was taken to a Doctor that decided she
needed to be put in a nursing home and that she needed a guardian
appointed to take care of her affairs. I was appointed to take care
of this. A job I was not prepared to handle. As time went on things
snowballed to the point of disbelief.
The Doctor would not release my Mother from
the nursing home so she began to hate me. With Doctors orders, I had
to stop my brother from taking her out on visits because of the
drinking. He also hated me. When things became more then I could
bare I dropped out of going to Church. We seem to do this when times
are bad, we turn away from the very friends we need the most. I also
turned away from God. I didn’t pray like I used to. When I though
things couldn’t get any worse, they did. My youngest brother got
killed in a car wreak. As I spiral out of control on a downhill
slide toward destruction, the Church we had attended sent me a
letter stating they were going to remove my name from their
I felt a big door had been
closed behind me; I felt cut off from the help I desperately
needed. There was no one to blame but myself; I had cut myself off
from Gods help.
Soon after this, I ruptured a disk in my lower
back and ended up in the hospital in traction. I was off work for
eight weeks. Loosing eight weeks pay was a disaster when you live
from one week to the next. When I went back to work it was plain to
see that they were replacing me. The boss had me teaching a
replacement fellow to take my job. I went to the boss and told him
that my back was fine, but he said, you may think so but it will
never be fine again. He said, once you have back trouble, you always
have back trouble, only a period of time and you will be off work
again. I ended up quitting a job I had worked at for 7 years. Oh
how I missed how things were before my world came crashing down
Somewhere along the line a voice had entered
my head. I became bombarded with things like, your stupid; you are
an idiot, a complete failure. You can’t do anything right, on and
on and on. It drug me down, I had forgotten God, and it was
destroying me. I found another job but it did not work out well so I
was off to another garage to work. This to, soon fell through, and I
had had it. I was fed up with life, I had reached bottom. The
heart ache, the pain, the constant voice chopping me down, I wanted
it all to stop.
I started listening to the voice; I was hatching out
a plan to end it all, a life that God had given me, a life that
Jesus had paid for with his own life on the cross. How could I have
reached this point when God had been so good to me?
I was dealing with the power of Satan. He was
seeking to destroy me. He was lying to me, saying there is no God,
there is nothing after death, nothing but peace, and everything will
stop. One little shot and everything will stop…… What a LIE, nothing
would have stopped; it would have been the beginning of the second
death in Hell. Thank you God for saving me from this, Thank
I fear that Satan is destroying many, many
lives in the world as I write this down. I read of young people
taking their lives almost every day. God help us.
The day after I quit my job, not important
why, I went in to pick up my tool chest, with around $3000.00 worth
of tool in it. I was in a very low state of mind and the voice had
hammered me all day, things like, you no good worthless piece of
trash, its time to do it, end it all.
I started to load my tool chest and a fellow
worker asks me to sell him my short tester. I said here, you can
have it, I won’t need it. Another fellow came out and ask, selling
your tools? I said, yes, first $300.00 dollars can have the whole
works. Would you believe it, he had $300.00 dollars in his
pocket, and I had just burnet my last bridge. Now I have no tools to
go to work anywhere. I couldn’t change my mind now. Do you see how
On the way home, I stopped and picked up a
box of 22 rifle shells. When I got home I put into motion, the plan
to take my own life. I removed everything from my pockets. I put
the money on the TV for Mary to find. I told her I would see her
later and was off to go groundhog hunting, or that is the way it was
to appear. I could not say good bye, good bye meant for ever, we
would never say that.
Then I disappeared into a corn field west of
the house. From there, I had mapped out a path in my mind that
would be virtually impossible to follow. This included wading up a
creek for several hundred yards. Then across several open fields.
Then I came to a large woods at least 2.5 to 3 miles from home. This
was the largest woods in our area and very seldom visited by
anyone. Deep in the woods, I found a stump on the edge of a cliff.
I had reasoned out that when I shot myself, I would end up rolling
down over the cliff and it would look like an accident. I am not
sure why I was concerned about this; I had no life insurance anyway
after loosing my job. I guess that if it looked like an accident ay
least maybe my wife and family could forgive me.
As I set there on that stump, gun to my head,
thumb on the trigger, the voice started screaming, DO IT, GET IT
OVER WITH, YOU ARE WORTHLESS, YOU ARE NO GOOD, DO IT.
It would not stop.
I heard another soft voice pleading, NO, NO; DON’T DO
THIS, YOU ARE SENDING YOUR SOUL TO HELL. DON'T DO THIS.
The other voice kept screaming, DO IT, DO IT, DO IT.
I remember thinking, maybe God is real, and
maybe it really was God that had helped me all these years.
If God is real then I am making a very
big mistake. Oh God, if you are real, Help Me, Help Me.
At that moment, I cried out in a loud
voice; “OH DEAR GOD”, IF YOU HAVE EVER HELPED ME IN THE PAST,
YOU HAD BETTER HELP ME NOW.
As I cried out this prayer, a miracle
happened that has changed my life for ever. I was suddenly out side
my body, looking down at myself setting on that stump, with my gun
pointed at my temple.
I could not hear voices anymore, everything
was quiet and peaceful. I appeared to look the same as the one
setting on the stump, but suspended in mid air.
I felt the presents of someone beside me.
He took hold of my left hand. I turned to see a figure in a pure
white robe. I never raised my head. I was too ashamed to look him in
the face. It was enough to just know he was there. I believe with
all my heart, that it was an Angel sent from God to help me.
He spoke in a very soft quiet voice,
COME, LET MY SHOW YOU. And then we flew up out through the
tree tops and headed toward my home. I remember thinking, Wow, this
flying stuff is great. We then flew over my friends house and I
though Wow, I never saw Doug’s farm from this angle.
I cannot believe that I would even think
of something like this when I am flying across the sky with a Spirit
holding onto my hand. I know it sounds strange, but all I can do is
tell it, just like it happened. I remember it like it was
yesterday, there is nothing more vivid in my life, then what
happened to me that day. I do not drink or take drugs. I was wide
awake, drug free, stone cold sober, and I was not hallucinating. It
happened just this way, believe me.
When we reached my home, we came in over my
wife; she was crying and looking up and down the road. I knew that
she was fearing the worst, while watching and waiting for me to come
home. It broke my heart to see her so upset. We then flew up to be
over the corn field, where I was last seen. The corn was tall and I
could not see who was in the corn, but I could hear crying. As we
got closer, I could make out my son Jeff. He had tears running down
his face and he was crying, DAD, DAD, WHERE ARE YOU? DAD, DAD, WHAT
HAVE YOU DONE? My heart was crushed. I said, God forgive me, look
what I am doing to them. They DO love me and I love them. How could
I be doing this?
The next moment I was back in the woods,
standing out side my body. I looked at the gun still pointing at my
temple and I said, NO, I have got to stop this. Instantly I was
drawn back inside my body. I was then looking out through my human
eyes. I jerked that gun away from my head and through it down over
the cliff. I then ducked down because I was just sure the Gun would
go off when it hit the bottom of the cliff, and it would still end
up shooting me.
A moment later, I jumped up crying my eyes
out and thanking God for saving me. A moment later, as I crawled up
out of there and headed for home, the voice started in again as bad
as before, YOU ARE SO STUPID, YOU EVEN FAILED AT KILLING YOURSELF.
YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT.
I cried, GOD, PLEASE STOP THIS THING FROM
TORTURING ME. The scripture popped into my head, and I spoke it
allowed, SATAN, GET THY BEHIND ME. When I spoke this, the
voice left me and to this day, has not returned. As I weep, I
thanked God over and over again. Thank you God Thank you, Thank you,
I walked up out of there, crying one moment
laughing the next, my emotions were going wild. I was very happy to
still be alive.
I run as much as I could to get home to my
wife Mary. I come up across the yard, trying not to show any sign
of what I had almost done, but she knew. We hugged, kissed, and
wept, it was over. Never would I do anything like that again.
This happened to me in the summer of 1985, 25
years ago and I remember it like it was yesterday. I still cannot
talk about it without tears running down my cheeks. I now look at
each new day as a gift from God. Each time I see the sun rise, each
time I see a deer run across the meadow, every time I pick up a
grandchild, kiss my wife, hug my sons, see a friend, I could go on
and on, I thank God that he had intervened, and that HE seen fit to
take me by the hand and lead me out of the depths of despair.
Not only did I
see the power and love of God that day, I also realized the power
and influence of Satan. He seeks to destroy us every day. I can see
it with our children. Satan is working hard to take over our
children with the movies and video games that are being sold. The
taking of God out of our schools, even the TV programming
available on Saturday morning for the kids to watch, etc, etc. We
need to watch, very carefully, what they are doing. Their souls are
being laid wide open for Satan to step in. When I was crying out to
God for help, that day in the woods, I was being driven by Satan to
take my life.
Only through Gods power to stop this, and me
reaching the point of crying out for Gods help, did I live to write
This was a very short period of time in my life
as I look back on the 72 years God has given me. God has blessed me
with Mary, a very fine wife for the past 53 years. Two great sons
who married and gave us seven grandchildren. They are also married
and have so far given us six Great-Grandchildren. Gods Blessings are
far too many to count. Life has been very, very good.
Thank you God
Dear Friend, I pray you never find
your self in this situation. But if you do I pray that you remember
that God is always there, waiting for you to turn to Him. He Loves
I learned a great lesson that day in the
woods. One of the ways that God has shown us how much he loves us,
is by coming to earth in the form of Jesus, (Colossians 1:15)
God was manifest in the flesh,
and then going to the cross, to be a sacrifice for our sins.
God wants our love, and He
wants that Love toward Him, to be totally our choice. To receive
this from us, he has given us total freedom to make that choice.
Picture having a bird in a cage. We
can feed and care for that bird and it sings to us but it is caged,
no freedom. What would it do if you give it its freedom? First it
would realize that it is free to do as it wants, and may fly off.
Then again, it may make the
choice to fly back, and set on top of the cage and sing to us, and
accept our love and care, and in this way, show it’s Love toward us.
This is what God wants from us, Our Love. We could not show this Love if God had not given us this freedom.
God gave us this freedom of choice from the very beginning.
I had been a Christian for years before
this incident in the woods but I had backslidden. I hate to think
what would have happened, had I continued my actions. By having a
free choice, I believe with our own actions, we can send our selves
to Hell. Something I fear I would have done, had I not turned back
It seems that there needs to
be a seeking, asking, knocking at the door, that needs to come from
us, to get the response we need from God. And that is because He
waits on us to make that free choice to turn to Him, to ask for
help. And then He is reaching out with open arms, Welcome Home,
Welcome home my child.
God answers prayer every
day, and He has many, many times, but He wants to be asked. It
least, this has been my findings. God loves us dearly, but he won’t
take away that freedom to choose.
If you are not a Christian, you
are just as lost as I was that day in the woods. You need to turn
your life around, accept Jesus into your heart, repent of your sins,
be born again in a watery grave of baptism, and then live for
Jesus. Jesus died on the Cross to take away our sins so we can be
ready for that, Out of Body Experience, when we leave this
body behind, to go home for good.
In Christian Love
Kenneth M. Bee