The sun
begins to rise, the light hits my eyes,
And I'm
ready to begin.
I've
decided I'm not going to harm myself today
But to be
honest-- I'm worried about the temptation.
I get out
of bed and immediately
The
thoughts race thought my head.
Its not
that I really want to
Its just
habit by now I guess.
Stay
strong
You'll
make it through.
These
whispers saying that you need to
Is nothing
we aren't used to.
My day
begins and its still morning
And I'm
already stressed.
Someone
insulted me, I feel so alone,
Too many
deadlines to be met.
Hold on
lil one
This time
might be harder than the last
Lets
distract our mind with something else
And I
promise it will pass.
As I'm
clicking though the channels
I can't
help but see
Something
that reminds me
Of my past
needs.
I quickly
turn off the TV
And shove
the thought from my mind.
I look for
something else to do
And remind
myself I'm fine.
I didn't
think fighting would be this hard.
My body
starts to ache.
I wanted
to be stronger than this.
My will
begins to break.
This
feeling is all too common.
I usually
just give in.
What's the
point of continuing to fight
It doesn't
feel this battle will end.
This day
won't last much longer.
I'll tell
the whispers "NO MORE."
Today I
became stronger.
Because I
silenced lying roars.
Tomorrow
will be easier.
I'll know
what to expect.
I'll be
more prepared to fight.
And will
fall asleep with no regrets.